Aljo-Log

How my brain is getting old, and so is my body. I have to accept that I am no longer able to remember the things I want to remember, even listening to a discussion on the radio can be too hard for me. I cannot remember what was said last because the information was erased from my mind as soon as I heard it. I have to accept that I can no longer get back on my feet when I fall. My arms are losing strength by the week. I am unable to think freely and anticipate. I have become an old man and I am only 46 years old. It is absolutely clear to me that all this was deliberately done to me. I find this a crime.

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How when I was a teenager that girls liked me but that the people at school and in the government manipulated our situation so that I would not get a girlfriend. My back is bent and this is a deal breaker. How the Dutch starved my love life and then I became a mental patient. These shrinks got permission to mold me into any way they wanted. I was handsome, loyal and true which was like an inconvenient truth to these shrinks. So they made me addicted to cigars and this started a process of my beauty slowly being destroyed. The point was that because I was good looking and popular that I wanted a pretty girl for a girlfriend, but that the Dutch hated my guts for me considering the American military women I knew nicer than the handful of Dutch females I used to know at the time. That by making me ugly that I would need to accept that pretty women would no longer want me. So I fell in love with a pretty girl in a downtown shop, and forgot about the 3 female university students I used to know, but who were complete turn offs. The American military left over a decade ago, and the Dutch wanted me to study again, but that because I am bald now and because I studied so hard in the 1980s that I no longer want to have to put in so much effort for something like a university degree which I really no longer need anyway. The Dirty Dancing movie has a song in the soundtrack in which the male character is thinking about how a girl is ‘out of my league’. That I was destroyed to make sure that pretty females would be out of my league too! Same principle. But the girl from the shop still wants me! Not to mention all my newly found friends in Canada and Australia! The Dutch committed a crime by what they did to me…
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This week the television movie of the week on ZDF was titled: ‘Das Kindermädchen’. About how a girl from Ukraine in World War II was forced to work in Germany to care for Nazi children. This script was originally a novel. It starts with a noble Nazi family in Berlin in WWII, and that this family has a secret that they stored looted art in the basement of their house. When this house is inherited by the grandson of this Nazi that he tries to keep the art for himself. And this wouldn’t have been a problem if there hadn’t been this Ukrainian old lady who traveled to Berlin to ask for money from this noble family because she had worked for them in WWII. The story of this film is about how this noble woman granddaughter of this family is about to be engaged to some man and that she is running for public office. That this WWII story is a stress on their relationship and on her career. The documents on this photo are the proof that these old women from Ukraine were in fact forced labor and eligible for pay. Even though this story is also about goodness in people. How the son of the family – now an old man – and the Kindermädchen  really cared for each other after what they had been through during the war. The last scene of the movie was really touching. A really good movie 4 out of five stars.
Aljo_

Architecture In Helsinki – Contact High
Beth Ditto – I Wrote The Book
Drapht – R.I.P J.R
Friends – I’m His Girl
Illy – Cigarettes
Joe Goddard – Gabriel
Lanu – Beautiful Trash {Ft. Megan Washington}
Pnau – Everybody
Seeker Lover Keeper – Rely On Me
Stonefield – Magic Carpet Ride {Like A Version}

I voted for these songs in Australian radio station’s TripleJ most favorite songs of 2011.

How I can feel my rider manipulating my decision making process! My consciousness is dormant and my rider is overruling all my thoughts. But who would this rider be? Some Dutch shrink? Some Dutch secret service spook? Or would this rider be someone else? I can understand that any shrink will diagnose you as a mental patient when you try to explain that someone else is controlling your thinking process. That the past 25 years must have been a learning experience for the mental health care workers who treated me. Still they were unable to get me to live a normal life. My memory goes blank all the time, that I am no longer able to recall even the most basic information. It feels as if someone else is living my life, why won’t these people set me free to live my own life? When someone else is living your life it isn’t an illness at all!
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My muscles are weakening, mainly in my legs above the knees. But also my arms are becoming weaker all the time. I don’t buy it what medical doctors say, that this is all natural. I reckon this muscle problem was deliberately done to me. By people who want to ruin my life. That it never was the intention by the Netherlands government to let me live a normal life. How it aren’t just my weak arms but also my disturbed hand eye coordination. As it is I am not free or able to control my own mind. I have to accept that most things I cannot remember. And that I am unable to read in a text book because I cannot absorb the information. I have so many interesting books but they are most of the time useless because I cannot take in information. I feel this is being denied to me by people who are sabotaging my mind. My consciousness isn’t free or my own. My mind is in dream mode, and all I can do is wait until it is awake again. This has been going on since 1992 and that the government doesn’t have the right to do this to me! I am very angry and frustrated.
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How there were people who deliberately destroyed my physical and mental health and my appearance. This has become so bad that I am no longer able to live a normal life anymore. Most recently my memory has become so bad that I can no longer follow conversations on the radio, or understand the plots of German drama series. It started in November of 2010 after my longtime love interest Elly had called me on the phone. The Dutch must have known all along I was devoted to Elly but that nobody told me she was a forbidden love, so she wasn’t, even though lots of people here wanted to make sure I would never be with a blonde woman. My health is so bad that I can forget about ever living my own life normally and in freedom. People with power here don’t care that I have to deal with memory loss too now. The Netherlands government really believes that they have the right to ruin my life, while this is a crime. When I started to go bald there were adverts on Dutch radio and television about so called Clinic Clowns and that this was only needed to cover up that the government was taking my scalp. How the Dutch first brainwashed me to only love blonde women and then made sure I couldn’t be with any woman. These people made sure that I couldn’t decide to act in such a way that I would have been in a situation to be with a woman the Dutch granted me. This had to do with the church, that the Dutch would deny me any woman as long as I wouldn’t be a true follower of Christ. These days my thinking process is being blocked when I am trying to concentrate and that this is being done to me to force me to ask Jesus for mercy to set me free to use my own mind. This is crazy, but the government wants it this way. I am sure Jesus doesn’t have a thing to do with my thinking problem that the people who treat my mental condition are in church and are making sure that my life is going to hell because religion doesn’t have a high priority for me. Just like my pacemaker was planned and deliberately done to me. I would want to immigrate to Australia, but of course the Dutch authorities would never let me go, and that when I got the assistance from powerful world leaders it only made these Dutch bastards more determined to destroy me! Where could I go for justice? Isn’t it too late for this? Still those responsible for my situation need to be punished. Nobody is going to punish my shrink for prescribing me medication while I wasn’t ill. My health problems were only needed to condition me to correct society. I no longer consider myself to be Dutch. I view German television, listen to German and English language radio and wouldn’t have a clue as to what is happening in The Netherlands. But not being free to control your own thinking process is really bad! I would have wanted to move to Australia and be with an Australian woman, but that I haven’t got anything to offer and that the Australian authorities don’t want me to become a precedent of a handicapped person who is unable to work for a living to enter on an immigrant visa. The Dutch are deliberately making me age alone, that they made sure I would remain single since I was age 14, and I have to be loyal to people who did this to me? No way!
Aljo_ (Mr Speedo)

How I am not free to think according to my own free will.
My rider is constantly disturbing my thinking process.
This rider is forcing me to think about Jesus, that my thinking problem is being used to force me to consider Jesus as my savior. That they won’t let me think about anything except about Jesus.
My mind and body are obeying someone else and this someone wants to convert me to Christianity.
This is a crime.
Aljo_

PS, How my rider senses what information I am trying to remember or memorize and then simply erases the it from my mind.

Check out my latest WebMatrix site, it draws 3D functions which you can enter yourself!

The URL is: http://fxy.aljo-possibilities.com.
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Draw Mandelbrotset and Juliaset fractal images, and then rate and store them in a database.
The URL is: http://fractals.aljo-possibilities.com
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