Archive for August, 2006
“Hang On Help Is On The Way”
This is a cartoon I found in The Australian today. It shows Australian Foreign Minister Alexander Downer. And that he crosses the border between a country where people who should know better and who deny reality, because it isn’t in their interest, probably because their bosses want this situation to be this way. To a country where the undisputed truth is accepted. People with power wanted to know the real truth. Which was exactly the thing the people in the first country didn’t want to deal with! Sort of like my mental health condition, where I have been asking Doctors to face the truth about me for years. One Doctor replied that the truth is different for everybody “subjective”. It wouldn’t surprise me that certain people deliberately keep me in this mental health condition. And that my American boss and my Australian friends talked about me, and that they decided to tell the Dutch to face reality! For which I am grateful!
Aljo_
My Opinion On Religion.
On the last Sunday of 1999 I went to church again, after a 14 year absence. I feel the Netherlands government wanted that. The Dutch probably won’t allow me to become a father, because I would have to raise my children in Christianity. I don’t know if I would do so. It seems that as long as there is even the slightest doubt in my mind about the level of my Christianity that the Netherlands government will deny me any children. In about 2003 I quit going to church because of my heart condition. I do like to go to church, but I haven’t attended a service in years. It would seem weird that you have your children baptised, which is a promise to raise them in a religious way, but that the only reason you do so, is because you want children. That is no good reason to have your children baptised! None of the children I knew in my youth are going to church these days I suspect. I was probably the only one of my generation to attend services. At the time I corresponded with an American Chaplain, and that he inspired me. I believe that Christianity isn’t dead; it just needs to become inspiring again and have good answers to today’s problems. The problem isn’t believing that Jesus rose from the dead, because that probably never happened. It is the spirit of Jesus that lives on, the Holy Spirit. This is a miracle too. I believe that the Bible is God’s Word for Mankind. You can learn a lot from reading the Bible. If you don’t believe in God, then God doesn’t exist. The point of being a believer lies in finding God within you. Then God will protect and guide you. This isn’t full proof. No matter how much you believe in God, and Jesus as your Saviour, bad things can still happen to you. A drop of hurt to one human-being is like an ocean of hurt of Mankind to God. Still if you hurt, God will help you cope. And so will knowledge of the Bible. I am in favour of living a devout lifestyle. It puts your life in perspective.
Aljo_
Mind Control.
I feel there is someone (else) who controls my thinking process. That I am not free to do my own thinking. I am unable to make my own decisions. It is like I am on a bicycle and cannot reach the pedals. To a psychiatrist this is impossible, because if someone else would control my mind, then they would need telepathy and shrinks don’t believe in that. Still I am confronted with this every day. That I am living with a set of nutcases who cannot do the most basic things and that it feels like punishment. I mean I am writing this, but as I am forming these sentences I notice how I am unable to stray from the path my horseman has in mind for me! Set me FREE!
Aljo_
About Why My Health Is Failing Me.
After all the illnesses I got, which became more and more rare and the odds of me getting these three health conditions are so incredibly small, that I wonder if they were deliberately done to me! That someone important in The Netherlands didn’t like me, and ordered people to take away my health. I don’t feel like I am in a fight with the Netherlands government. But that by now they must have noticed that I spend my time viewing German TV, and that I know more about Australian news than Dutch news. It still hurts to me, that I was kicked off university in 1986 probably because I wasn’t part of a peer group, because all my actions were controlled, that I didn’t see any fellow students who would have a normal friendship with me. After that I got into American military women, but that the Netherlands government probably told the Americans that I wasn’t allowed to be with one of their women. The Dutch want me to be a coward and therefore they deny me a love life. The Americans thought I was brave enough, but the Dutch only wanted to deny me my freedom. I have an Australian flag in my room and I feel Australian these days. If I had stayed in Australia in 1984, I would have been able to live a normal life. I suspect that all my health conditions were deliberately done to me. The people, who did this to me, hadn’t expected the US government to support me so loyally. So some Dutch government official bit off more than he or she could chew. And that now I am being bullied by Dutch ministers, probably because ministers from other countries are showing an interest in me too! I wish I were healthy, and then I could leave the country.
Aljo_
Airman First Class Beth Sherman.
This is a photo of Airman First Class (A1C) Beth Sherman. AFN Soesterberg presenter of the morning show between 1989 and 1991. In 1985 I fell in love with an American military radio presenter, but she turned out to be married. So then I asked the Americans if they could get me girlfriend who would present a radio show. So then in 1989 there was Beth, we met in the Den Dolder’s MacDonalds. We talked for 20 minutes, I gave her a Rick Dees Weekly Top 40 sweater, and I asked her if she wanted to go to a Billy Joel concert with me. She said she couldn’t get a day off from her job. I thought she didn’t want me. During that time I frequented Amersfoort Country bar ‘Het Zadeltje’ (the little saddle) and there often was an American who was a friend of the boyfriend of Beth. So I thought she was with someone else. So then I called Beth at work to tell her I was going to visit HQs AFN Europe in Frankfurt am Main Germany and that she replied “I thought you were with me.” I mean I was so used to the fact that I was single that it never occurred to me that I had an American girlfriend, because we weren’t allowed to go out or spend too much time together. Beth took a job in the pizza shop on base, where you could buy a slice of pizza; I was there twice a week. And when I met her there we sometimes talked very briefly. These days I realize how privileged I have been that the Americans made sure that I wasn’t single. Then in her last year at Soesterberg AB she met a guy called Dean with whom she fell in love, so she got married and then left the US Air Force. Last thing I heard about her was that she had a baby through Caesarean section. I am wondering what she looks like now, she is some 3 or 4 years younger than me, and how she turned 21 and threw a party. Not that I was invited, but it was Desert Storm back then and that changed the mood at Soesterberg AB. I am sure that Beth now has a well paying job, and some three kids. She loved me too! I remember walking on Soesterberg AB hoping to meet Beth and that she wasn’t there and that it hurt worse than a tooth ache. But the Americans knew, so they were kind to me. Friendship is real! Like Allies who need each other.
Aljo_
US Navy Captain Michael ‘Flex’ Galpin.
This photo is of US Navy Captain Michael ‘Flex’ Galpin. I wrote him some three letters in 1983 when he was a Lieutenant and Public Affairs Officer of the VF-2 ‘Bounty Hunters’. He sent me some nice air to air photos of VF-2 Tomcats, which he had made. His nickname was Flex because he used to make photos while flying with his Reflex (SLR). Galpin was a RIO who is a Flight Officer in the rear cockpit of an F-14 Tomcat. I bought a VF-2 ball cap from him. And back in 1983 I was the first in Amersfoort to wear a ball cap! These days lots and lots of men wear ball caps in my hometown. In 1986 LT Galpin was working as an instructor for the US Navy Fighter Weapons School called ‘Topgun’. (A Topgun is a fighter pilot who shoots down two or more enemy planes in one mission.). Anyway, in 1986 the movie Topgun was made and Michael Galpin instructed the moviemakers how to get the best shots, he even acted in the movie as a MiG pilot! I used to wear a Topgun T-shirt which I had bought in 1984 long before there ever was a movie made about the Navy Fighter Weapons School! In 1996 I was watching the Discovery Channel when I saw a show about a US Navy aircraft carrier and that the commander of an F-14 squadron who was featured was in fact CDR Michael Galpin! So I made some photos from my TV screen and sent them to CDR Galpin. He never replied to that letter. On Internet years later I read that Michael Galpin had become a Captain and that he commanded Carrier Air Wing Five on the USS Kitty Hawk. After doing that for some two years Galpin became a Chief of Staff to some Admiral. And that is the last I heard about Michael Galpin. I mean, 1983-2006 that is over 20 years! And I still know his name and what he did during his career!
Aljo_
The History Of My Love Life.
I am 40 years old, and I never had a girlfriend. These days my health is really bad, but I could have had a girlfriend in high school and university. I feel the Netherlands government denied me a love life. That people who could made sure I would not be close with any girl so that I could start a relationship with her. As a sophomore I was in love with a classmate called Caroline and that as a junior all girls we liked were removed from our class and that they had all been replaced with girls who only came to school for study and who were complete nerds. As a senior I fell in love with a girl from a lower grade. At first she liked me, but her parents found her too young to have a relationship or go out. In the mean time I got more and more in love with this girl, until I graduated in 1984. I always felt fear when she was around and that in the two and a half years I was in love with her, I only talked briefly to her some 4 or 5 times. She rejected me 3 or 4 times. It was a very weird situation. Because I figured she wanted me, even though she rejected me. These days I feel that the only reason I had to be so in love with this girl was to keep me from thinking of other women. That the people who controlled us; didn’t really want us to be together. Then I entered university and there were so few females around and I had to study so hard that I decided to do without a girlfriend. In January of 1987 I dropped out, I thought because I was overworked, but in reality because the Dutch government didn’t want me to have a degree. After I dropped out I started to focus on American military women, and that I had two or three American military radio presenters as fiancée, except I wasn’t allowed to go out with them, and do things people in love do. But on the radio they were mine! In 1994 the Americans left and I fell in love with a Dutch girl in a shop. To this day I am still in love with her. I think she is in love with me, too. After we both realized we were in love, the Netherlands government made sure we would remain apart! Like the Dutch government did every time I liked a girl. The Dutch who control me took away my health to a point where I can no longer live a normal life. I wonder why the Dutch are hitting me so hard; I didn’t do anything to justify ruining my life like this! It is lately as if my consciousness is no longer my own, that someone else’s soul is making my decisions! I can only hope this is temporary. I am living the life of an 80 year old. I feel that bad. I am sure this is not the result of an illness, but something the Dutch did to me! If I ever get my life back I will move to Australia! The Dutch deny me a love life and offspring. For reasons I don’t know. I need to leave here.
Aljo_
The State Of Dutch National Politics.
In November there will be parliamentary elections held in The Netherlands. The Left Wing and Right Wing parties both get about 45% of the votes. As it seems now, there is no clear winner, and that neither wing will get a majority. Maybe we need to do the same as what happened in Germany that we’ll get a Large Coalition. The Labour Party and the Christian Democrats together forming a government. They tried that after the last elections, and it didn’t work when Dutch politicians tried to build a Large Coalition, some three years ago. These days Left and Right Wing parties no longer are willing to compromise, because of fundamental differences of opinion on how to do things. Both the Left and the Right are equally strong. We never had an all Left government in The Netherlands before, so that must be the reason why there are people who are reluctant to vote for a Left Wing party. It would seem that you would vote Left Wing when the economics are booming and Right Wing when there are economic difficulties. It seems that we are slowly recovering economically. But it is only a start. I find that our current Prime Minister Balkenende (Christian Democrats) has done a good convincing job. But that because he had to introduce legislation which was unpopular, that the opposition Labour Party had an easy job in telling the people they’d do it differently. Now Labour is at about 50 seats in the polls, and the Christian Democrats are at approximately 42 seats. Only time will tell if Labour will remain the biggest party, but I would guess that insiders know, that should Labour be voted into government that they will have to abandon some of their positions if they want to govern. Okay, I will write more, if I get inspiration. The elections will be on November 22nd, if I’m correct.
Aljo_
My Link For Oldies Radio.
How about listening to some Oldies from Britain and the States, 1950-1970? Well, try ‘.977 Music Network’! I love to listen to those songs everybody knows, some from way back when American military radio was still here, others from covers by new bands. You get to hear the originals on ‘.977 Music Network’. For years I listened to OldiesRadioNET, but they could no longer pay their bills and joined ‘.977 Music Network’. I figure for such a web station you only need a computer with a large hard disk with several thousands of MP3s with Oldies on it, and then the most costly is the Internet stream. I have sent money to the States twice to sponsor this station. These people lack advertisement. I mean, all those pop ups are a problem, that takes away the joy of listening. But if they could have a few paying advertisers then they could provide the stream to lots of people for free! I don’t listen to that many streams, mainly Australian radio and OldiesRadioNET. I like low budget radio, where they focus on the music they play. But then a 128 kbps stream from the USA might cost 30 euro per year per listener. There are also web stations where you have to pay to listen at all, that you can only listen to such stations if you are a registered paying listener. This ’.977 Music Network’ link has lots of other streams too, like a comedy stream, a classic rock stream and a country stream. Have a listen!
Aljo_
My Own Alternative Diagnosis Of My Situation.
Lately I feel I have a problem with my consciousness, that my mind is being controlled by someone else. For example, after I had visited AFN SHAPE in 1988 to meet my all time favourite radio presenter. I wanted to listen a lot to the brand new AFN Soesterberg. But that when I woke up in the morning when my girlfriend presenter did her show, that I couldn’t stay awake and couldn’t concentrate on my radio anymore. These days, after all I experienced, I think that there are people who can make decisions on my own mind and make me unable to concentrate on things they don’t approve of. The people who controlled my mind didn’t want me to listen to AFN Soesterberg. The same thing is happening to me where my love life is concerned. There are people who make sure that I am unable to make my own decisions where my love life is concerned. These people probably don’t even want me to have a love life! This gets me really angry, because I get older all the time and none of my powerful friends will tell these people who work for the Dutch government and who control me to leave me alone. Set me free. I have every right to be mad at our Prime Minister Balkenende, because he could make these people back off. Today was in the news about a ceremony in The Hague where people got Dutch citizenship. This ceremony was a first time event. Well, everybody who reads this may know that “I want to become an Australian citizen, because those people would let me live my own life!” My situation is so simple, this is no too difficult to understand medical situation. No, this is a situation where because many people needed to be punished, that I am being punished for all those people that made a mess of their lives! Sort of like Jesus. Or like the name of that Canadian band: “Broken Social Scene”. That is the reason I am in this mess, not because I’ve got a lot of bad genes. Okay, I hope this explains!
Aljo_