Aljo-Log

Archive for October, 2006

Between September of 1984 and December of 1986 I studied Computer Science at Utrecht University. Then I phoned American military radio and became a Persona Non Grata at the university, as if the Dutch would have let me finish my education had I not called AFN. After I left the university I collected quite a few Computer Science books some of which are more interesting than the books the university used. But then after 1991 my mind was no longer free and I became unable to read and study the books I had bought, because my mind refuses to think. Today it became clear to me that my thinking block is deliberately done to me, that The Netherlands Government is denying me the knowledge which is in the books I bought. Which is something which the Government doesn’t have a right to deny anybody. I wondered if the Dutch would let me study again, because anybody who knows my situation realizes that someone is committing a major injustice. I am no longer interested in studying at some Dutch university, I would prefer to work for an American IT company instead. And be trained by my employer, because the Dutch are not only denying me my education they also took away my freedom to live. I find that wrong, but it could be that it is needed for some greater purpose. I sure wish I could move out of this country. The idea alone, that the Dutch Prime Minister personally ordered his people to make me unable to read my purchased books, because he denies me Computer Science knowledge, is disgusting. It is MY mind, and I cannot even do with it what I want! Try explaining that to a shrink! This is probably the truth.

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When I was in my teens and twenties I was always thinking of the Americans of Soesterberg AB with their F-15s. Lots of boys from my neighborhood used to do the same. We were always talking about our American idols and the US Air Force. There were quite a few guys I knew who went to Soesterberg AB after school each day to spot F-15s and other aircraft. Those people were called ‘Spotters’ and their trademark was their flight jacket with patches on it. I too used to wear a coat (albeit not a flight jacket) with a patch of the 32nd and A1C stripes on my sleeves. I remember how when there was an American music group visiting my college and that they were preparing themselves for their performance when I walked in with my American rank insignia and that these Americans noticed: “He’s one of us!” The Americans left in 1994 because of the end of the Cold War. And that after all these years lots of us here are still missing them. I mean I used to listen to American military radio (AFN) and that I am really missing them the most. These days it seems as if the Americans are bad, that they were people of war, and that their mission was to fight and that that can be dangerous. This is true. I mean I used to see fighter pilots as movie stars, but that looking back now; they were more like professional wrestlers. Back when the American military was still here, we got exposed to a lot of American culture. Like for instance American Top 40, now with the Internet it used to be possible to listen to AT40 via a website of a commercial American radio station. Unfortunately they are no longer available here, their Internet stream is no longer available outside the USA. It is clear to me that the Governments of the world decided to go local. I am being forced to listen to Dutch radio, because these Governments no longer allow their people to experience foreign influences. Just like how this weblog is in English because I no longer master the Dutch language, and that this is only one aspect of my affection for America. I still have email addresses of American service members who were once stationed at Soesterberg AB. People I used to know personally. People who still remember me and who see me as a friend. The American military has changed so much since 1994. And that the American military is at war today, which has an impact on the ties between civilians and soldiers and airmen. Still I realize how much happier I am with my American influences, and that I am afraid that the Dutch are trying to brainwash my American identity out of me. I’d hate the Dutch for this! If I were able to – health wise – I would like to work for AFN in Germany as a local civilian. I am sure I’d belong there. A lot of males from my youth have to deal with a sense of loss over the departure of the local Americans. I feel it too and that I feel the Dutch Government doesn’t have a right to take our American influences away from us. Because the 32nd means a lot of good memories to us, and what we believe in, even if it turned us into foreigners as if we’re living in exile. Americans know how to live, the Dutch don’t, and that is basically what it comes down to. Have a look at my AFN site or my Aircraft page or my American Football page.

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Check out this newest animation by Australian cartoonist Nicholson.

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There is one Dutch TV show I try to view every week. Saturday 9:27 pm Nederland 1. This show is called: Koefnoen, which means ‘complimentary’, or ‘for free’ in Yiddish. It is a show to make you laugh, because comedians imitate well known Dutch personalities like PM Balkenende. They also try to make you think about issues in the news by showing the funny aspects of the stories in the news. So there is one show on Dutch TV which I do view!

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Years ago I gave up on Dutch TV, since March of 2003 I haven’t viewed any Dutch TV anymore. Instead I view ZDF (German Number Two Network). Since recently I also consider giving up listening to Dutch radio and listen only to foreign radio over the Internet. I don’t feel at home with Dutch radio, home was AFN (American military radio) but they left in 1994. Dutch radio is only out to score and they all focus on young listeners between ages 15 and 30. The music most Dutch radio stations play is the same all the time. Since some three months there is a new radio station in The Netherlands, they call themselves 100%NL and they only play Dutch product. They are doing better than I had expected, but it is like as if I am only allowed to listen to 100%NL that I am being kept away from other Dutch radio stations. As it is I am missing AFN a lot, and that there is no Dutch radio station which can take the place of AFN. AFN had diversity: Pop, Rock, Classic Rock, Latin, Oldies, Country, Novelty records, Talk, News. AFN had nice presenters like women who could entertain you without having to mention sex. AFN might have been too sweet, too nice, too innocent, because their presenters were soldiers and airmen who earned low wages and who weren’t allowed by their mission statement to talk on air about the kinds of topics with which Dutch presenters are trying to score. I am convinced that there is no need for any radio personality to talk about sex-related issues on air because that is addictive to young listeners. Now with this urban music culture which didn’t exist here 15 years ago, that a normal listener is no longer able to listen to normal radio, I mean no matter which popular radio station you listen to, you will be exposed to urban music whether you like it or not. American radio culture is superior to Dutch radio culture. I mean, we don’t have a Rush Limbaugh here, or a Paul Harvey. On AFN you got to learn things which were helpful for your general education. Dutch radio will only teach you where to get your piercing. Why would someone have a piercing at all? Why listen to Dutch radio at all? Radio can be so much better…

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I couldn’t sleep last night, and just before the Sun came up I made this photo.

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Yes, that is exactly what I mean! Today I listened all day to 100%NL-radio, but they play Dutch music, and there isn’t enough good Dutch music around so they end up playing the same songs. I know I want to listen to Australian radio, but when I try to tune into TripleJ I feel an emotion of severe depression. So to stop my head from exploding I switch off the Internet stream and tune into 100%NL again. But I’d had it with 100%NL so I tried to listen to MP3s which I have on my hard disk, and again this depression started to emerge. Someone is forcing me to listen to 100%NL because that person wants to expose me to Dutch culture, while the last 20 years I have been doing all I can to get away from Dutch culture. I am going to ask my shrink to explain to me what causes this depression and if he thinks someone is deliberately doing this to me. I don’t mean to be funny, but in a way my situation is hilarious because Doctors always told me that they didn’t believe in telepathy, while in my case there is proof that telepathy is in fact possible. If I had to explain it, I’d say there is probably a substance in my blood that makes me ‘radio active’. And that it isn’t an illness but a controlled effort by an organization with the means to do this kind of thing. I like 100%NL but there are so many Dutch songs around which try to bully me, because the Dutch cannot stand the idea that I made it big in the USA. As it is, I am not feeling like a native Dutchman anymore, while I am a real Dutchman. I simply found a better place elsewhere but that the Dutch don’t want me to leave. So now I have to listen to a lot of abuse against me on the radio. Maybe I will start writing down which songs offend me, because this article is kind of vague. But basically what these Dutch artists sing about are my unattractive properties. How my teeth turned yellowish due to smoking and how that led to my hair loss. I am convinced that someone got me hooked on cigars in 1989, because that person controlled me remotely, and that the Dutch government finally acted when my hair had already been lost. I am convinced that I am controlled by friendly individuals these days, but that they cannot set me free (yet). That I will remain a puppet until their mission is complete. This message is becoming a little bit incredible, but I am sure I am telling the truth here. Make up your own mind about this situation of mine!

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Lately I experience so clearly that my mind isn’t free to think. That when I try to do something which requires a thinking effort that there is someone else who is making sure that my mind is blocked. I want to read a book about computer programming, but that I cannot even control myself to walk to my bookshelf to go and get this book, let alone read it! It is like as if my mind is asleep and unable to perform intellectual activities. This lasts all day, all week, all year, and many years in a row! Why get out of bed in the morning if you cannot even use your mind? Not to mention my physical difficulties. I think The Netherlands Government is denying me my freedom of thought, because I would use my mind to think about things which would have to do with working for an American IT company, and that The Netherlands Government wants me to study again. The Government is blocking my thinking process to condition me to become open to studying again at some Dutch university. Because they cannot accept that in 1986 I chose for my American friends, so they kicked me off Utrecht University! I am only willing to study at an American university. Back between 1991 and 1999 I was on duty 24/7 for the Clinton Administration and that I didn’t like it, but that my American boss – Secretary Cohen – always told me how much my service meant to him. In 1999 I felt like “this has to stop, I need my freedom back!” Now it is 2006 and I am still not free to live my own life, and use my mind for what I would want to think of myself! I cannot talk to my shrink about this, because the only thing he will say is that it is a symptom of my illness. Yeah right! My soul is missing. Shrinks don’t think souls exist. Maybe the reason to deny me my freedom to think is that I am being used to get people into church again and that my mind is being used to brainwash many people. There was a computer game on the Commodore64 where you are a small robot in a spaceship with renegade robots and that you have to re-program rebellious robots to get the spaceship back under friendly control. This is what my situation reminds me of. I never have a day off, and that this isn’t an illness, but a controlled effort by NATO or a similar organization to perform a mission to control the psyche of the world. How certain people see me as a prophet. This could be the case because I might be as holy as the Pope. I don’t know the truth about my situation, but I do know it is not a regular mental disorder. I am convinced that there must be people who make sure I remain in this condition, probably because they need me like this. After being turned into a mental patient by the Dutch, I cannot convince people that my health was deliberately taken away from me! “You’re crazy!” End of conversation.

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These days I am listening many hours a day to new all Dutch artists radio station 100%NL. I am wondering why I don’t opt to listen to for instance Australian radio instead, something I used to do the last two years before 100%NL was introduced here three months ago. I feel that the people of 100%NL have a hold on my love life, that through telepathy they are able to keep my attention. If they weren’t able to interact with my emotions I wouldn’t listen to them, because I am not a big fan of Dutch musical artists. Anyway shrinks don’t believe in telepathy, while I have no other explanation for my motivation to listen to 100%NL only. What do you think?

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This is what they say in Australia…

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