Aljo-Log

Archive for December, 2006

The Dutch like to eat ‘Oliebollen’ and ‘Appelflappen’ during New Year´s Eve, ‘Oliebollen’ are basically balls of dough with currants and ‘Appelflappen’ are dough with apple in it, which are fried in oil. This is a many centuries old tradition among the Dutch. If you are from the USA you probably never heard of these treats. Oliebollen are nice to fill your stomach especially during a cold New Year´s Eve that is probably why this food got to be popular among the Dutch in the first place. I just made this photo in our kitchen where my mother made dishes full of Oliebollen and Appelflappen.

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This is me at Christmas this year. The dinner I am eating here was delicious.

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I feel so clearly lately that there are people who have power over me who decided that my health should become impossible. Of course my heart condition is a big problem; I am not even free anymore to go outside. But even worse are my legs which have become so weak that I can no longer get back on my feet by myself anymore, and that my legs tend to make me stumble and fall. I simply refuse to believe that my three major health conditions were all caused more or less coincidentally. The Dutch always denied me the kind of life I would want, and that it is only logical that I want to become an Australian, but that when the Dutch realized I was never coming back that they hurt my health. For the New Year I decided not to view any Dutch TV and listen more to Australian and American radio via the Internet. The Dutch didn’t want me to be a popular guy so they made me ugly by making me addicted to cigars which turned my teeth yellowish which then enabled certain women to take my hair. And that when I asked my dentist to bleach my teeth to make them white again to stop my hair loss that he said he couldn’t do that. While TV personalities and singers always have white teeth because they have them bleached. I have become so unattractive and that people on Dutch radio make comments about it. In 1984 I had decided that I didn’t want to be a public person. Looking back I find that a very wise decision on my part, but that the Dutch refused to leave me alone because they couldn’t accept that I never listened to Dutch radio anymore because I listened to American military radio. The Dutch are basically hurting me because they want to create a certain effect. This all has to do with Christianity and how a desperate Dutch government would try anything to stop people from leaving the church. Like how when I was young that I wanted a pretty girlfriend, but that the Dutch denied me a love life because I no longer went to church and that in university I saw so few females and the workload was so heavy and because I had no friends, that I never went out. So I saw almost no women whatsoever and that after I dropped out of university I became a mental patient and that patients and staff relationships were forbidden. Last month I read a book about programming. And that that was my first book I read completely in some 10 years, because due to concentration lapses I was no longer able to concentrate. Again I feel that the Dutch are deliberately doing this to me, because they know that I enjoy reading books about computers, and that the Dutch wanted me to show interest in Dutch women with whom I didn’t want anything to do. How my mind is often not obeying me and that I am convinced that there must be people who control my every thought, try explaining that to a shrink! There are suggestions on the radio that I might hold a job some time into the future. While my mental, my heart and my muscle conditions will never be cured. So I don’t understand how I could ever hold a job. Or have a serious relationship for that matter. The Dutch are expecting me to desire revenge and to some extent I do feel like beating up the Dutch Prime Minister or someone in a similar position. But I am sure that former Dutch Prime Minister Wim Kok really took the time to know my problems, and understood the seriousness of my situation. I wonder if I were healthy if I would be able to live a good life in Australia. What I plan to do in 2007 is to earn the friendship of people who want to be my friends in Australia, that those people there will notice my potential. I mean I have a date on the beach with a female Australian radio presenter for a New Year’s party. I feel the Australians even gave me (another) a pretty female radio personality on TripleJ to go steady with. Should I be able to hold a job, I would like to use this opportunity to ask Microsoft Benelux or Sun Microsystems Europe to consider hiring me. The kind of job I would like to hold is providing content for the Internet. I will work on my Dutch (because I only master primary school level Dutch) and that when I am able to that I will learn to be fluent in German too. Unfortunately I feel I won’t be able to hold a job in 2007. Still it is nice considering this, because it allows you to be optimistic. Okay this has been my story of 2006 and what I plan to do next year in 2007.

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Earlier this year there was a cartoon contest in Het Parool, and that one of the contestants was the cartoon ‘Flo’. I liked it, so I ordered a copy of a booklet of Flo with cartoons titled: ‘De Dagelijkse Ergenissen’ (The Daily Nuisances). It is very funny it is only 30 pages and cost 5 euro. When I buy a cartoon it is usually to give it away, this cartoon I bought for myself. Here is a link to the Flo website, you can have a look.

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Today I saw this cartoon by Nicholson of The Australian, it is titled Statue and is really funny and well conceived. It comments on how the War in Iraq didn’t bring Western values to the country. Have a look!

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During cooking duties today I burned a spot on my head because I had forgotten to take the pan off the cooker. I have been thinking for a long time that someone else is deliberately denying me my freedom of thought, and that I had read in the manual 30 minutes earlier that I should take the pan off the cooker before making the mashed potato. This gets me kind of angry because I am convinced there are people who are constantly over ruling my mind and taking away my freedom of thought! Like I cannot anticipate, I cannot remember, I cannot think freely. Nobody of the people who care for me is willing to consider this. Probably because they cannot deal with this, and that they have instructions to leave me alone. My new shrink knows the truth, and I am sure he is willing to consider the telepathy option. This says enough. Still I want to get my self control back, that my mind and my body will obey me again. Still my situation probably serves a purpose.

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Back in 1985 there was a guy named Feargal Sharkey who sang a song titled: ‘A Good Heart’. This song is about how it is hard to find someone to start a relationship with. And that I have a pacemaker and that I wonder if my pacemaker was deliberately done to me and that this song tells why. There were several songs from the Dutch Top 40 which predicted things that actually happened to me. It makes me hateful for the people in charge who deliberately ruined my health and then made my life impossible. In high school the teachers talked about how one individual could be sacrificed to save the species. Right now there is a Dutch song on 100%NL which is only written to make my mother depressed. I need to leave this country and immigrate to Australia or the USA but my failing health effectively turns me into a captive. The Netherlands has long since ended being my home country. Bastards how they took away my freedom, and that it turned this country into a prison. I will see if I can find a picture of Feargal Sharkey.

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Some time ago, I wrote in this weblog about http://www.pulverradio.com and that I liked to listen to them. The idea is that artists upload their songs to this website and that PulverRadio is allowed to broadcast these songs for free. Especially for new bands this provides a place to expose their material world wide. The only requirement for these artists is that they won’t let PulverRadio pay for playing their songs, so only people who manage the copyrights for bands can upload. A few weeks ago I was listening to Shadoe Stevens – his show is called ‘Rock The World’ – on PulverRadio and that he played Van Velzen with ‘Baby Get Higher’, this is a new Dutch artist who got world wide exposure this way! I would urge all Dutch bands to upload their songs (in English) to the PulverRadio website. Because I would like to hear more Dutch material! This is a good deal!

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My little shop to give away bigger versions of the photos from my Amersfoort page is online since 30 minutes. Everything seems to work perfectly. I have 89 photos ready to be ordered and I plan to add another 60 pictures. It is all free. Like all web shops you can put items you want in your basket and when finished you go to the counter where you can complete the transaction without having to pay because I removed all methods of payment. You need to enter your email address and then you’ll get an invoice (via email) with a link and when you click on this link then you can download the pictures you ordered directly from my site to your hard disk. Please check out Aljo-Shop and tell me how you like it.

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Last week I had difficulty sleeping during three nights and one of those nights I didn’t sleep at all. Last night I slept really well. But now it is 5 pm and my mind feels like as if it is asleep while I am definitely awake! Would there be people who are able to remotely influence my ability to sleep? This is probably an attempt by these people to control me! They want to make my life impossible by sleep deprivation. These people don’t want me to be in control of myself so they make sure I am not free to live my own life. To stop me from doing meaningful things (to me) they make my mind think it is asleep. Would this be possible? It wouldn’t surprise me! Bastards!

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