Aljo-Log

Archive for January, 2007

My webhosting provider is offering blog software, so I plan to switch from the WordPress weblog which I used since August 2006 to start using new weblog software. You will still be able to read all my texts on this weblog, but I plan to add my next new texts from now on, on this URL: http://blog.aljo-online.com So click on it and have a look!

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Today I got the new version of my program with the classes and subclasses to work. And I used the ‘using’ command many times which looks a little bit more professional. There is however one problem with my new program, every time that my program draws a new picture on the screen it generates a new form. And to get my program to draw on the screen in the first place I had to add a ‘this.Show();’ command. I haven’t got a clue as to how to fix this multiple forms problem because there are so few lines of code in my program which have to do with opening new forms (also called windows), I don’t know where to look for a solution. Also my memory is so bad that all things I learn I forget instantly. I think the people who control me don’t want me to think about programming but about having sex with women with whom I don’t want to have sex. And that they change my thoughts so when I think ‘open’ they will change it into ‘close’ so when I am thinking I am typing “open” that then later I find out I typed “close” instead and this way I am making programming errors simply because certain people deliberately sabotage my thinking process. I am so convinced that there are people who deliberately frustrate my thinking process that it seems like punishment. It is not my fault that so many women lack children and that a desperate government will try anything to get more new children born. Now that I am writing this I would like to mention that yesterday I was thinking to myself: “If the Netherlands government needs growth in the number of people who live in this country for the sake of the economy then they are making a mistake!” I am so angry about the fact that the people who control me deny me my freedom of thought that I am shouting all the time: “Set Me Free Prime Minister Balkenende!!!” I am sure they deliberately keep me in this state of constant bored ness because they won’t let me use my mind. Bastards!

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Pretty women aren’t necessarily good-looking; they are simply more easy and better to interact with. I mean really beautiful women are rare, but a lot of women are ugly because they aren’t ‘nice’. I was denied interaction with girls and that because they could the Dutch made me bald and ugly. Perhaps the Dutch Government didn’t act to make me bald; they could have stopped it from happening. I feel the Netherlands Government wanted me bald and ugly, that they decided I should lose my beauty. This situation makes me feel hatred for The Netherlands, because next to taking away my beauty the Dutch did many more bad things to me, and that I hold the Dutch Government responsible.

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When I try to read a computer science book, I feel – after only two minutes – like I urgently need sleep. It appears like the Dutch deny me to study computer science because they want me to fall in love with ugly women first. So to put pressure on me they took away my ability to concentrate. The last couple of weeks I averaged one or two sleepless nights per week! I feel this sleep deprivation is also deliberately done to me by people who control my mind. Most of the times that I cannot get to sleep are when I plan to do something with my PC the next day and that I want to sleep to be fit the next day. When you don’t sleep all night you feel bad all day the next day and that you are unable to exercise or concentrate so you won’t be able to do anything after a sleepless night. I think the Dutch deny me to write my own computer programs, and that they know I am working on my programming skills but that the people who control me frustrate my thinking process because they envy me all my intellectual activities. I find this very mean, and really wrong. My mind is like a sports car I own but in which I’m not allowed to drive. This has been going on since 1992 and that I am starting to lose my patience. This has to stop!

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Earlier this week I couldn’t get a TextBox (an example program from my book about C#) to work, and then I found out that the author of the book had deliberately offered a more complicated way to use a textbox and that when I realized this I got the code to work with only 5 lines of code, instead of 10 lines of code in the book. So the solution sort of was even simpler than the problem, it was probably too trivial to put in a book. Today I decided to work on my first ever C# program (which I made last November) and use classes instead of all methods in one class. After some two hours of cutting, pasting, typing and getting the code to run I was finally able to compile the new version of my graphics drawing program. So I compiled it ran it and got an exception after some more fiddling with it, I could compile and run the program, but that it refuses to draw on the screen! While I haven’t changed anything of the declarations and methods, I only moved code around. So now my program seems good except it won’t draw any lines etcetera. I am not going to keep debugging until my mind gets tired because that won’t help. So I printed the current version – which doesn’t draw on the screen – and will look at it tomorrow. Again it is probably a very small problem like an erroneous configuration or something that my code isn’t the problem. Will keep you posted! I find this exciting!

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I have known for years that the Dutch Government is denying me freedom of thought. Something shrinks don’t believe is possible. Yesterday when I messed up cooking again; that then suddenly I clearly noticed who I was. I noticed that my thinking process started to emulate the thinking process of someone else who lives in the same building as me, and that that person has a lot of difficulty cooking. So up ’til now I was unable to generate my own free thoughts, since yesterday I know who actually currently generates my thoughts. This is like punishment, like how I got a hit on my homepage from the Dutch Department of Justice yesterday. Of course I did nothing to deserve punishment as far as I know. I haven’t been free to live my life for so long that if I have done anything illegal that someone else made me do so. But it could be that the Government uses me to punish certain other people, or uses me to detain dangerous people. I am sure I will get paid for this! Still it is a lousy experience. It makes me quite angry sometimes, because this has been going on for over 20 years. It has to stop!

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Today I started to try out some code examples from the book about Visual C# 2005 Express Edition which I have been reading in November and December of last year. And that everything went fine, until in chapter 8 I encountered a simple piece of code to program a so called Text Box – which is basically a box on the screen where you can enter text. And even though this program consisted of less than 10 lines of code, I couldn’t get it to work. I must be overlooking a simple detail and that when I realized after 45 minutes that my mind was starting to run in circles that I decided to stop trying to get this simple program to work. Still I did get 5 other examples of code to work without much difficulty. So today was a productive day for me. I am taking this easy, if I would try to learn too much too quickly I would end up forgetting most of what I would try to remember. I did hardly do any programming over the last 10 years, the last programming project I did was some two years ago when I wrote a Java source which is on my homepage, and that required too much effort so I quit trying Java, Microsoft Visual C# 2005 Express Edition is so much more user friendly so it will cost less stress on my mind to do a little programming in the C# language. I’ll see how far I’ll get.

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While going through some old letters I found this photograph. It shows an F-15 of the 32nd Fighter Squadron at the Military Aviation Museum in Soesterberg, Netherlands. The Americans left in 1994 when their radio station went off the air, and that I just know that I am going to miss American military radio (AFN Europe) in 2007 more than ever. Luckily I can listen to American and Australian radio stations via the Internet! Who would have thought that this would be possible some 10 years ago? You can listen to AFN on the Internet too but their stream is always filled to capacity. It is a shame that Dutch radio doesn’t fill the void left by AFN. Dutch commercial radio stations basically all do the same thing, so if you don’t appreciate one of them then you basically have got no Dutch radio station left to listen to. The funny side effect of this situation is that most of those Dutch national commercial radio stations don’t make a profit because they aren’t the best in their specialty. Besides Australian radio is far better, better music, better presentation, real enjoyment. Dutch radio is more like doing drugs and being addicted to their product. Unfortunately those Dutch radio stations don’t listen to me, so they keep on messing around with stuff they really suck at. In the mean time you can have a look at this photo from 1996 which I put online today.

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Here is a photo I just made of the fireworks near my parents place. The Dutch try to make me believe that 2007 will become a great year for me. But if it were up to me I’d immigrate to Australia and leave The Netherlands. Dutch society is no longer my home.

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