Aljo-Log

Archive for February, 2007

Yesterday I looked over my books and selected two to tell me how to try to add an option on my 3D programming project so that you can enter a set of coordinates and that a method then calculates the needed rotations around the X and Y axis so that the Z axis runs straight through the eye for the projection. (So Y is up and Z is towards the viewer and X is towards the right.) This is a similar computation of for instance finding the longitudes and latitudes of coordinates on a globe. It isn’t hard, so I wrote a method to do this and it seemed to work. However I wasn’t quite content with the result. So I started to do projections along axis and discovered it didn’t do at all what I had intended. For instance when you look along the Z-axis towards the Origin you should see the Y-axis pointing upward and the X-axis pointing to the right. This wasn’t at all what I got! So I needed to think this through some more elaborately. And then – you guessed it – my mind started to jam and not cooperate! So I decided to take a little break. And think things over. I remember that back when I still was at university some 20 years ago, that I couldn’t solve this problem at the time either. What I learned however is that there is an Inverse Tangent method in the Math library called Atan2() and that should do exactly what I want. Like determine in which quadrant a point is located. And that worked nicely except I ended up in the wrong quadrant when putting the eye in the first main quadrant! Twenty years ago I could still think freely, now my mind refuses to do anything complicated. But even though I didn’t get my method to convert eye coordinates into angles and distance to work, I did learn something today. Maybe I’ll try some more tonight or tomorrow. I have a feeling someone is deliberately making sure that my mind isn’t thinking right! That’s more for my Mind Control series.

Aljo_

I feel the Dutch are holding me hostage in order for me to age before they will set me free, if they ever intend to set me free. My failing health is needed to make sure I won’t leave the country when I regain my freedom. Believe me I have done nothing to deserve this, but that the Dutch use me to manipulate society. I no longer want to be Dutch, I no longer view Dutch TV and I am listening less and less Dutch radio. I notice how I no longer know what’s in the news in this country. I wish I were an Australian, but then I would need to be able to work for a living which I am unable to. I don’t have a Dutch girlfriend because the Dutch manipulate me, that the woman I am in love with is another Dutch female than the woman I can get and that I am unable to change my mind and abandon my first choice. I am hoping the American military will send me a woman to marry, due to my history in The Netherlands I am no longer interested in Dutch women. The Dutch are denying me the kind of life I would want, and that they are only making me age to make sure I will never have a family. I have gotten to hate this country, I no longer feel in my right place here but that the Dutch government will never allow me to leave. And I hate them for that!

Aljo_

The Dutch make sure that I am unable to do anything which may appear to resemble studying! So they won’t let me write computer programs, because when I try to concentrate certain people disturb my thoughts. Also learning to do things with my PC like how to use PhotoShop or something else for which you need to use your mind to concentrate is denied to me. Mental health care professionals in this country call this ‘beinvloeding’, which means in English something like ‘influencing’, which can only be explained by the use of telepathy. While mental health care providers don’t believe telepathy is possible. Personally I think that it could be that a certain country developed telepathic ability as a means of war, that there is military technology that enables certain people to have telepathic ability. Anyway the Dutch kicked me off university because I was friends with American military radio personalities, and that they were scared at the time that I was attracting CIA people etc, so that they no longer wanted me around. Another reason that the Dutch kicked me off university could have been because I didn’t have a girlfriend, because I didn’t meet any Dutch females I liked. And that after two years at the university that my time was up, and that I needed to go. So then I switched from Utrecht University to American military radio and met a few American military women I really liked, which now makes me conclude that it wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t find a girlfriend at university, as it was I saw only some 5 different female students at university during the whole time I was there. All this and the Dutch government’s pride make me conclude that this is the reason why the Dutch won’t let me study, and are making sure that my mind isn’t free to learn anything new. While I am forgetting knowledge I learned in school and at university, but hey that was 20 years ago. My situation really is making me very angry. Maybe I’ll write about my anger some other time.

Aljo_

I call my Australian aunt for an hour each weekend using Skype and it costs me only 2 euro cents per minute. The quality of the connection is good, I use a headset and it works okay. I wish I had more people to phone with. Skype to Skype calling is free, where I call my aunt on her regular phone using a service called SkypeOut. In Australia there are more remote areas where there is no broadband Internet. I wanted to call Australian radio and the connection with them cost some 16 euro cents per minute, while when you call this radio station from within Australia with a regular phone it is almost free, so I stopped the dialling. Years ago I used to phone with Frankfurt Germany and the USA, calling American military people but now these people have all left their bases or the military. So I have hardly any people left to phone. Still it is nice to be able to phone people so far away for so little money.

Aljo_

Today I bought this book titled: Visual C# 2005 Recipes: A Problem-Solution Approach. It is over 500 pages and features solutions of how to program certain projects. This book is the sequel to the book: Beginning C# 2005 Express Edition, which I also bought, which was some 4 months ago. This new book is a lot more complicated than the previous book. But that it wasn’t written to be read front to back, but to be used as a cookbook where you only read the solutions you are interested in. Like I was wondering how to use a text file to store information from my project and that this book has in fact a solution on how to do this in C#. I sure hope to use this book a lot, because it was quite expensive. Will keep you informed of my progress.

Aljo_

I feel so clearly that I have someone in the back of my head who determines what I think and do and that this person isn’t interested in programming a PC at all. So that there is no way for me to program my PC because my mind refuses to consider and focus on anything related to programming. This is not something a shrink considers possible. I however have no other explanation for my current situation. Suppose they put a woman in the back of my head who only thinks about sex, then she will never use my mind to come up with a concept to program a computer program, because that is the last thing on her own mind. While I want to program my computer but that my mind listens to this female’s desires and won’t do what I want, which is programming. I think this is the truth about my situation. My mind is chained to a pole and denied to roam free.

Aljo_

In 1994 I fell in love with a nice girl in a tiny shop in downtown Amersfoort. When word got out that I was in love with her, that lots of Dutch people wanted to make sure I would never be with her at all cost out of jealousy. While I was in love with her and she was in love with me. So what would all those people be complaining about? She was considered too pretty and I had been boycotted by the Dutch where relationships were concerned since age 15. These Dutch people are getting really mean, while it is none of their business. My health is so bad that I am physically unable to have a relationship; I can’t even ride the bus or a bicycle because of my heart condition. I feel that my generation was boycotted by the Dutch government so that these kids couldn’t find girlfriends because the Dutch government envied us relationships other than marriage. So that my friends got their first girlfriends / fiancées at age 30+. And this is no coincidental sequence of events; this was deliberately done to us by the Dutch government. I don’t know if I will ever be married and even become a father. My mental health care providers made me mourn over this for years, while all they needed to do was cure me and set me free, but that instead they made me bald and gave me weak legs so that I can no longer get back on my feet by myself anymore when I fall in the street. All this indicates to me that the Netherlands government is making sure that I am mentally and physically unable to have a relationship and become a father. While I am simply un-free to do my own thinking, like anticipate, and decide what actions to take when something happens. When I try to use my mind to do some extensive thinking that my mind jams. That it refuses to remember and understand what I am trying to grasp. I feel this is deliberately done to me, and that the Dutch need to set my mind and body free. In my current situation I am unable to have a relationship with a woman.

Aljo_

I am not controlling myself, I don’t control what I think, and I don’t control what I do. But then I am living the life of a caged animal. So if I were in control of myself I’d go nuts of being bored. I am like the ball in a football game I don’t control where I go, I go where I am being thrown or kicked. If I were free I would want to immigrate to Australia, because I no longer feel at home in this country. I am missing 20 years of my life. I no longer want to give the Dutch any more time. I am convinced that I am deliberately being kept in this situation. Being over age 40 and not having anything to show, while at the same time in Australia I could choose between some 5 different nice women to start a relationship with. If only my health wasn’t such a problem, a problem which was deliberately done to me. Australia is so much nicer and friendlier to live than The Netherlands. I want to forget I was ever Dutch.

Aljo_

It seems as if the Dutch are frustrated over the fact that I don’t really feel in my right place in The Netherlands. And that they are trying to make me as ugly as possible. Something I would never do to someone. In high school when we went from second to third grade all nice girls in our class had been replaced by female nerds who only came to school to get high grades. The boys from my class at the time thought that the Dutch government was behind this. Anyway since then my love life has never been the same. In 1989 I met Beth an American military radio presenter of AFN Soesterberg. We had a relationship I was her boyfriend and she was my girlfriend. But that we weren’t allowed to go out together because I figure the Americans didn’t want to hurt Dutch pride. I did know quite a few other Americans from Country bar ‘het Zadeltje’. I met Beth twice a week in the on base pizza shop where Beth worked part time to make some extra money. If my health hadn’t been so bad, I am sure I could find me an Australian woman to marry. I have got nothing in common with Dutch women. I am 41 years old and never was with a Dutch female, and to tell you the truth I am no longer interested in Dutch women in general. In 1994 I fell in love with a Dutch girl, after she noticed me first. But that the Dutch denied me to be with her at the time. And that now I still feel how this woman is the only Dutch woman left I still want to have a relationship with. The Dutch deny me my freedom (of thought and action), so I am not even free to approach any woman I’d like and I am over age 40! Certain Dutch women are using their periods to make me very unattractive. This says it all. I should be in America or Australia, not here!

Aljo_

Today I was looking out of my window when I noticed two condense trails by two transports or airliners close to each other and in parallel. So I thought to myself, this could be American military transports because airliners won’t fly in a ‘formation’. So I asked the pilots of these aircraft (telepathically): “Can you get me to Dover, Delaware?” Dover Air Force Base is an Air Mobility Command base where transports from Europe fly to. To my amazement the pilot of one of these planes answered to me (also telepathically): “We’re flying to McGuire AFB, New Jersey.” I knew McGuire is the name of an AFB so I checked my USAF manual and this magazine confirmed that McGuire AFB is located in New Jersey (something I didn’t know) and also is an Air Mobility Command base. Isn’t this proof that telepathy is possible?

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