Aljo-Log

Archive for May, 2007

Today I worked some more on my current programming project which is a web site that produces fractals. I learned a lot today! I make lots of beginners mistakes, for instance I couldn’t understand why ‘Request.PhysicalApplicationPath’ gave an error message, until I realized that this code was part of a cs-class-file not an aspx-file. Also ‘Response.ContextType = “image/bmp”‘ didn’t work, until I discovered I could simply delete this statement! Being a beginner is hard, for instance I don’t understand yet how MasterPages work, but my current MasterPage works fine, so I don’t mess with it… Still I should really understand this matter. Visual Web Developer has so many possibilities, I like it!

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I feel so clearly how there is someone who is able to deny me my freedom of thought. This is like as if I have a co-pilot who is making sure I cannot take control of the controls. I call this person ‘my rider’, and that this rider is able to overrule my mind. This gets me very angry, because this is no illness. I feel this rider must have been ‘on my case’ since long before I ever got to be a mental patient. At first this rider didn’t make my life impossible. This rider is making sure I am unable to do certain things, like how I am unable to approach women because my mind doesn’t co-operate. Like the fear I always experienced when my high school sweetheart was near. This fear was deliberately done to me. I wrote about this before, but there must be people who are able to remotely manipulate other people. My being a mental patient was probably caused by these people who are able to disturb my own thinking process. While shrinks didn’t believe this is possible, I think in recent years, shrinks were provided proof of this possibility. My situation has been going on for over 20 years, so this is a long term project, and the people who are responsible for my situation probably won’t set me free, as if I could be set free with my three major chronic health conditions. I feel my life was sacrificed and that I haven’t got a clue as to what is going on. I blame the Dutch Prime Minister for my troubles, but that he probably hasn’t got the means to fix my situation. I wish I could immigrate to Australia, because here I will always be living like a zoo animal.

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Yesterday night I started to work on my Fractal drawing program. I made a MasterPage, and added some four or five sub pages. I also made some graphics to be displayed on my site. Today I worked on it some more and wanted to transmit some data from one aspx file to another and that I didn’t get it to work. The point is that the matter ASP.NET is dealing with is really very complicated, so understanding aspects of ASP.NET is hard. I just decided to add a database with the data for each fractal to my project. Many ASP.NET applications deal with databases. My point was: what do I do when there are many people on my website, how can I keep track of each visitor, their data and which picture needs to be displayed to what visitor, my fear is that certain people get to see other people’s fractal. This can be fixed by making each user log in, which is also made easy by Visual Web Developer, except I don’t want to make people log into my site. Besides this problem only exists when there are at least two people or more on my site at the same time. Okay today was hard, but I did learn a few things. And this stuff needs practice, because VWD has so many bells and whistles that it can be confusing at times.

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Today I got my Julia Set drawing application written in C# ready for testing by other people than myself. This program lets you enter 4 numbers and then it draws a fractal. Feel free to try lots of different combinations to see if they are turning into a nice piece of graphics. ASP.NET is a lot more complicated that I expected, and that there is no-one who I could ask questions as to how to do something. I do occasionally post questions on programmer’s websites, but that my questions are so trivial. Anyway, the URL is: http://www.aljo-projects.com

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Today I uploaded my first ASP.NET C# application to my new domain. My program worked just fine on my PC, but after putting it online and testing it, it didn’t work. The problem was that I used the same filename for renewed pictures, and that this new file was stuck in the browser cache. What I need to do to fix it is come up with a new filename each time a new picture needs to be loaded onto the screen as part of my website. So I made some code and now I get a newly named bmp-picture-file each time a new picture is being created. This actually works fine. However I now have difficulty in setting the ImageUrl so that the picture is displayed on the screen where I want it. Somehow this refuses to go flawlessly, and that I spent quite some time on my PC today so I decided to postpone fixing this problem until tomorrow. Still I am learning a lot by doing this programming, but that there are pitfalls in ASP.NET which you need to be aware of. Still all this is a lot more user friendly than I ever expected possible. As soon as I get my new ASP.NET website to work, I will post its URL on this weblog, I am not going to post an URL if it doesn’t work properly.

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Since some 9 months I am programming again. In 1992 someone disabled my ability to program, by blocking my mind when I would try or even consider programming. I think the Dutch government wants me to think of girls and relationships and not programming. The girl I am in love with is a working girl, while the Netherlands government wanted me to be with an intellectual woman. Today I was working on a project, while I didn’t have my books with me, so I had to work on what I could remember. Remembering is a problem for me, because I forget absolutely everything. I think that there are people who can erase my memory when I try to remember something. This gets me really angry. I no longer control my own mind! I feel that often I am starting to act according to another person’s consciousness. I even think that when I am programming some project that this mind controller knows why my project won’t work and is making sure that I cannot find out why it doesn’t work. How this ‘master’ is making sure I cannot think of the reason why my program won’t work and what needs to be fixed or changed. Sometimes my mind switches to black and then I am no longer in charge of myself and start to behave like this other person who is me. This is so frustrating, I am thinking like a dog, but dogs don’t do programming! So you can imagine how hard it can be for me. Who would want me to live the life of a dog? My thinking process isn’t even at a level of a 6 year old. Time goes on, life goes on, and I am only getting older. I am wondering about my quality of life should I get my freedom of thought back. Will my memory become reliable again? Or can things only get worse? These things are on my mind lately. I hope you understand.

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I am reading a book about ASP.NET 2.0. I intend to build a website with ASP.NET! I find this a lot of fun. I already rented a web domain and a 200MByte account with a web hosting provider that supports ASP.NET 2.0. Looking forward to putting my first ASP.NET application online! Will keep you informed.

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When I browse through my English dictionary that I find that I know so many English words. Since a year or so, I am experiencing difficulty remembering things. This all started when I began to learn German words by viewing German television, for every German word I learned I forgot a word in English! It seems like certain people control my memory and are in fact making me forget my English vocabulary! I find this very mean and wrong. I would swear it is possible for certain people to remotely manipulate my mind. What can I do about people who are making me forget what I have learned over the years?

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This is another hilarious animation by Peter Nicholson, cartoonist of The Australian. This kind of message will convert people into believers I am sure of that!

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To my amazement I get more visitors from Germany on my website than from The Netherlands! These days I no longer view Dutch television, I opt to view ZDF instead. I love shows on ZDF like ‘heute’ or ‘Berlin-Direct’. There are far more interesting shows on ZDF, but that I don’t enjoy watching television. I am trying to learn and understand the German language. So basically what I do is write down all key-words from ‘heute’ which are important to understand the news and then make a list with each key-word’s translation into Dutch. This way I can understand about 60% to 75% of the message conveyed by ‘heute’. I mean I understand the problems and arguments about for instance the High-Way-Tax (Maut) or the Budget issues or even the Minimum-Wage (Mindest Löhne) debate. I learned that the German economy must be very similar to the American economy. That it is tough. Like when you become unemployed in Germany that you must live in poverty. Or how many workers make so little money while they have to work for many hours per week. This wouldn’t happen in The Netherlands. And to be honest, I don’t understand why Germany cannot have a minimum wage. Chancellor Merkel proposed a minimum wage per branch of the economy; I thought that would be a good start! The point is, only the best politicians in the German Länder make it into the Bundes parliament. So when you get yourself into the Berlin Parliament that you are among the finest politicians of all of Germany. The Netherlands can be compared with a German State like Nord-Rhein-West-Falen, so our Dutch politicians lack that extra level like in Germany. I find German politics a joy to follow, like the issues they encounter and what the Merkel Administration is doing to make Germany a better place for all Germans. I like Germany … a lot!

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