Aljo-Log

Archive for June, 2007

It is so clear to me, that there are people who are in fact able to dominate my thinking process, and switch off my own consciousness. That sometimes I am totally no longer able to control my thoughts and body, because there is someone else who is taking this ability away from me. I get very angry about this. I don’t think that the people who treat my mental condition are doing this to me. I think it would be more likely that the CIA is using me for some mission, that maybe I am being used as a jail to overpower people who might do harm to the USA’s interests. Like that Commodore64 game where a small robot is being used to regain control over a renegade robot manned space ship that was a fun game! If the US Government is responsible for my situation, then Dutch Prime Minister Balkenende cannot help me, because I would only get my life back after the US Government no longer needs me. So getting mad at PM Balkenende doesn’t help. As it is I am no longer feeling at home in the Netherlands, and that I am still missing American military radio. So I am not going to get angry at President Bush or some other American. The Americans did me a lot of favours when the 32nd Fighter Squadron was still here, and that the Americans want something from me in return. I appreciated my ‘American Experiences’ more than my ‘Dutch Experiences’. This is mainly because the Dutch denied me a love life, which was only needed to make me feel at home with the Americans. I remember how one morning I was expelled from my Dutch class, because my name is ‘Aljo’ and that when I stepped outside, crying over what this teacher had done to me, that I saw how two F-15s had painted a big ‘O’ in the sky with their condense trails right over the school building. Which made me think: “What do I care for Dutch while these Americans mean so much more to me?” (The first name of my high school sweetheart started with an ‘O’!)

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I was looking through some old mail and found this picture; it was made on July 2nd, 1993 at Eindhoven AB. Not by me, but by a guy called Sven, who mailed me copy because I had asked him for it. The F-16B in front is of 313 Squadron and the F-16B in the back is of 316 Squadron.

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Back in the 1980s I used to listen to American Top 40 (AT40), American military radio broadcast it every Sunday afternoon. Shadoe Stevens presented AT40 at the time. I knew that AT40 was being produced by ABC Watermark in Hollywood, so I phoned them! And guess what, these people let me make an appointment to phone in with Shadoe! So one Monday evening (when it was 11am in Hollywood) in 1988 I called ABC Watermark and got Shadoe on the phone, we talked for 12 minutes. I remember asking Shadoe how he felt about the fact that he did the world’s biggest radio show but that LA radio personality Rick Dees was America’s best paid radio presenter. These days AT40 is being presented by Ryan Seacrest, I listen to AT40 via the Internet. American Top 40 is a show like no other, and that I cannot understand why Dutch radio refuses to broadcast AT40, I feel they could air this show between midnight and 4 am on a Sunday morning. I get a feeling that Dutch radio bosses don’t want to expose their audience to American radio shows, while I feel it would be nice to be able to listen to AT40 on a local radiostation. Since our 1988 phonecall Shadoe Stevens is my friend!

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Since 1998 I have a pacemaker and that I suspect certain people poisoned me to give me this heart condition. If it were up to me I would leave the Netherlands for good, because I no longer want to be here. I would want to immigrate to Australia but my heart condition is so bad that I am unable to live a normal life. Besides heart patient I am also a mental and a muscle patient, and again I suspect that these conditions were deliberately done to me, to deny me my life the way I would want it. For instance I am enjoying Australian radio and that I am contemplating if I should listen to Australian radio and forget Dutch radio or if I should give Dutch radio a chance. I feel I contributed a large part of the reason why Dutch commercial radio station Radio538 became Holland’s biggest station. The point was there are 10 commercial radio stations in the Netherlands, and that everybody was listening to Radio538 so that all those other stations couldn’t make any money. This resulted in a situation where my listening to Radio538 was banned by Radio 538 presenters making remarks so that I wouldn’t enjoy listening to them anymore and that there were several commercial stations changing owners and names. Now there are some 4 or 5 larger stations which get a 4 to 5 percent market share. While Radio538 used to have a market share of 11%, now Radio 538 has the third largest market share so that other commercial stations could grow in marketshare. There are so many reasons for me to want to become an Australian, and that I feel the Dutch are hurting me because they know I cannot go anywhere. So I am planning to buy me a so called SoundBridge which is a device which lets you play internet streams on your stereo, so that you can listen to radio via Internet without having to switch on your computer. I mean I listen a lot to streams but that it can be inconvenient because you sometimes need to do things with your PC which aren’t compatible with listening to streams at the same time. I find it so cowardly that the Dutch deliberately took away my good health to make sure I wouldn’t leave the country. Australian music is so much nicer to listen to, so much better and more original. I know a lot of Australian bands and songs. I also feel that a lot of Dutch bands are merely out to hurt my feelings because I don’t want to listen to Dutch music. Maybe if I would really leave the Netherlands for good, that it would mean a big humiliation of Dutch pride, and that the Dutch cannot deal with the truth because they deliberately manipulated me into an impossible situation where I am today which I refuse to accept. I feel I should be allowed to leave if Australia would let me in. And Australia would let me in because I still need to get a favour from the US Government, which is back pay. But that I cannot even work for a living. So I only cost money, while certain people made a fortune because of my activities. So I don’t expect any difficulties with getting an immigrant visa for Australia. My only problem would be that the Dutch won’t let me go. I have so little freedom that I feel as if I have house arrest, something I don’t deserve, even though I can understand that the Netherlands Government won’t set me free to leave for Australia. So I hate the Netherlands more and more every day. Which is just and my right at this point in time.

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Last week marked the end of Internet broadcasts by New York based webstation PulverRadio. The main reason for this is the raising of royalties owed to the American Copy Right Authority. The cost of royalties was maybe doubled or even tripled and that PulverRadio was a small player with only a few thousand listeners, without the backing of a wealthy radio station. I know how much I am going to miss PulverRadio, because I loved their format. They played alternative rock music and classics. PulverRadio had shows presented by people like David Marsden and Shadoe Stevens. Especially David Marsden’s show titled: ‘the Spirit of Radio’ was such a joy to listen to. Referring to music from the 70s and 80s I could relate to. Shadoe Stevens presented a show titled: ‘Rock the World’ which featured new music which was fun too. I used to listen to OldiesRadioNET which was based in Louisiana and featured lots of American oldies from the 1950s and 1960s, that was so good! But these people also could at some point in time no longer pay their bills. The point is of course that Internet radio could change the world’s radio landscape. What if tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of people in Europe would start to listen to American radio via the Internet? This could be the reason for American radio to block Europeans from listening to them, because of pressure from European radio stations. Still I can understand that certain people will want to listen to other radio stations than their native country offers them. Because for instance all 10 Dutch commercial radio stations broadcast the same format, and if you don’t appreciate one Dutch radio station, you won’t like a single one of the others either. It puzzles me, what could possibly be the use of having so many stations which all do the same? The reason I started to listen to PulverRadio almost a year ago, was because I had written an email to Shadoe Stevens, because I had found his website, and that he answered my mail by telling me that I could listen to his show on PulverRadio! In 1988 I talked on the phone with Shadoe for 12 minutes because he used to present American Top 40 at the time. So we know each other. I get a feeling that in the USA big business want all people to listen to Hip Hop music and therefore these powerful people make sure that all alternative sources of music are being gagged! PulverRadio was fun while it lasted, and that it was high quality audio and commercial free, so I don’t know how they paid for their bills. But they probably only had a few thousand listeners, mainly in the New York City area. Still they could have become a lot bigger if more people from around the world had found them, because they were good! I am going to miss PulverRadio! It would seem a good idea to found a European webstation that broadcasts music you don’t hear on local radio, because there is so much good music out there, which lots of people never heard here. Some commercials aren’t a problem, as long as the connection is good. This is a good idea, I am sure!

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