Aljo-Log

Archive for July, 2007

In relationships women are the suppliers who sell. So if a woman wants a partner and is unsuccessful she simply lowers the price of her ‘product’. Males however are buyers and the more well known a male is the more ‘expensive’ it is for him to get a female partner. This is similar to how wealthy men who divorce, that the more money they have, the more they have to pay for the settlement. It is no surprise that females have less difficulty finding a partner, because a seller can ask less for her product, a buyer who can’t afford some product can only wait and hope the price will go down eventually. That’s all. This is significant information to understand how forming relationships works in modern society. The females want a ‘Sex and the City’ style love life, the males go for a ‘Desperate Housewives’ type of situation. Both of which are obviously wrong. But then who would know a better way, and be able to implement it?

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I feel so clearly that the people who make Dutch radio are out to hurt my feelings, probably because the Netherlands Government selected me to act as a scapegoat. So I listen these days to Australian radio via the Internet. This situation is starting to make me wonder why I would stay in the Netherlands in the first place. Unfortunately due to physical handicaps I cannot move abroad. It wouldn’t surprise me if the Dutch deliberately took my good health away to make sure they could manipulate me into any role they wish I would play. For instance the Dutch Christian Democrats who are in power are acting to get people to go to church again. Probably because 30 years ago – when people still attended church – the Christian Faith was a powerful player and that in order for a Christian Democratic political party to survive they will need ‘believers’. Of course there are many people who think that what the Dutch government is trying to do here is important and good. But there are just as many people who feel that politicians should remain secular. As for me personally, I hate my situation, if I had been healthy I would have left this country long ago, but as for Dutch society things are starting to improve. For instance these days you see people with young children, while when I had the age (in my 20s) to have children nobody I knew did have any children. Two of my closest friends both got their first child at age 40! I cannot help but wonder if the Dutch government sabotaged our lives because we weren’t interested in girls and cared more for military aviation, that the Dutch government considered us ‘the enemy’. Something I find striking though; is that it appears to me that these days most young – really little – girls are pretty, while when I was young most girls were plain. Maybe this is because I am staying in a more expensive neighbourhood where housing prices are concerned. In the 1980s and early 1990s there were some two or three radio pirates in Amersfoort. I liked listening to them. I remember how sometimes these pirates would get crying girls on the phone on air who wanted to go out with the presenter of their radio show. I remember how when I was in high school that you weren’t taken seriously by the desirable girls if you didn’t go to downtown bars during the weekend. I don’t have many good memories of this era because of the fact that I begged my friends to go downtown together but that they weren’t interested. I now feel the Netherlands Government manipulated us. Between about 1989 and 1991 I used to go to downtown Amersfoort bar ‘het Zadeltje’ a country music café which often got American visitors from the local air base. That was a good time! Even though for the – about two years – time I was there I didn’t meet any women I fancied. I remember how one Saturday night I was in a conversation with a young woman and that we talked about a mutual friend, and that the barman kept splashing water – which he was using to clean the glasses – in our direction. So I figured he didn’t want me to talk to this lady… I could write about Dutch commercial stations, but I won’t. The only thing significant about this is, that Dutch commercial radio stations paid a lot of money for their licences and that therefore the Dutch Government is making sure that not even one local pirate will get on air for ‘free’. There must be 10 different Dutch radio stations to choose from, but that I don’t like one single one of those. Even if a pirate would get a license to broadcast locally, I cannot imagine how they would be any different compared to what national stations are doing. I often wish American military radio would still be here, but now with Internet there are lots of stations to listen to. I do realize that American military radio is in the past for good, but that these people made my teens and twenties worth while. Because Dutch radio is controlled by people who aren’t our friends like the people of AFN were. There is so much going on in Dutch television about pirates that I am wondering why that is. Radio pirates are just plain criminals. Even though the Dutch authorities let them be probably because the Government didn’t want all locals to tune into AFN. It all comes down to that the Dutch Government cannot tolerate the fact that after more than 10 years since AFN has left, that I still would prefer to tune into AFN instead of any Dutch radio station. This only shows how over the years I have shed my Dutch identity because I wasn’t allowed by the Dutch to live my life the way I would have wanted it. I am still in the Netherlands because I am more or less physically detained here, not because it is my location of choice to be. The Dutch took my university study, my sanity, my freedom, my good looks, some 20 years of my life, and that it made me realize that I should leave this country as soon as I possibly can. I know what I want from my life and the Dutch are making sure I won’t get it. That’s all there is to it. I have influential friends in the USA, Germany, and Australia I need not take this punishment by the Dutch Government! I am not stupid. But then my heart condition was probably only done to me by the Dutch on purpose to be sure of the fact that I wouldn’t be able to leave, like how a slave would want to be free.

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I feel that there are people who render me unable to care for myself, that these people even made me need a pacemaker to make sure I would never be independent. This has to do with the Church, that the Dutch ruined my life when I left the Church. Of course the Netherlands Government can ruin anybody’s life and get away with it too! I feel I am not me. Someone else is controlling all my thoughts and actions. I am acting according to the will of someone else. Try explaining this to a shrink! He or she will never believe you, and even if your shrink would realize it is the truth that your symptoms are caused by a third person, that he or she will never admit evil intent is the reason for your condition. It is so weird that your own mind doesn’t obey you that you’re like a passenger in your own mind. Maybe this is needed by the government, but I have had enough. I need my life back, even though it will never be the same.

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I am so convinced that there are people who can control my mind, like blocking my thinking process, or erasing memories, or totally taking over my thinking process. Today I was working on my PC doing something new, and that someone else took over my thinking process so that I could no longer establish what I was doing. All my coordination was gone! This got me so angry that I started to curse! Isn’t this precisely why cursing was invented? Isn’t a curse a statement to condemn the fact that you are not in control of yourself? But that it is ‘new’ that it is – these days – actually possible for other people to control your mind. So that this means that when someone else is sabotaging your thinking process that it is appropriate to curse? Because this person is taking over the role that people used to consider to be the role of God. What do you think?

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In 1994 the local American Forces Network radio transmitter went off the air here in Central Holland. Since then I am forced to listen to Dutch radio, and since I can no longer listen to Dutch Radio538 that there is no Dutch radio station left which I enjoy listening to. So I tune into Australian radio via the Internet. Today I tried to listen to TripleJ and got an error message. I feel that if the Dutch authorities would discover I listen more to Australian radio than Dutch radio that they might sabotage my Australian stream. The Dutch radio station I am now listening to is called 100%NL they play Dutch product only, which I find too much of the same all the time. Whenever I tune into Radio538 they tease me away. I long back to AFN, when I could still touch base with America. AP Network news lasts 5 minutes and tells you all you need to know about what is happening in the world. Dutch radio news lasts only 2 minutes and is like a mini soap, with useless information. It might be possible to listen to AFN via iTunes, but that I haven’t registered there yet. I no longer feel in my right place here in The Netherlands.

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Since yesterday I am working on a website with DotNetNuke. DotNetNuke is a framework to build websites with a lot of functionality like for instance databases. I bought a book about it, which I read in two days, now I am trying to do what is described in this book. Yesterday I spent two hours before I got my first site started, because I hadn’t checked the manual that came with the DotNetNuke download. I thought it would be simple but my efforts weren’t successful because I didn’t know I had to rename one file! After I discovered this I got it installed, and working… I am very careful not to make too big steps, because I am still a novice in this. But I do find it a lot of fun!

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I bought a book about programming; I read it in 2 days. Now I want to use the skills this book taught me. But that I clearly feel how there is someone who is able to block my mind. So that when I pick up a book to read that the only thing I can do is close this book immediately and put it back on the shelf. This is no illness this is done by someone who is able to control my mind. This person doesn’t want me to make an intellectual effort. Lately I feel as if these people who are doing this to me made sure I have the mental ability of someone with Down’s syndrome. I was born healthy but certain people who can are denying me the freedom to freely use my mind, and do with it what I want. I think this has to do with the Dutch government that they want to control Dutch society. For instance the government finds it very important that people would go to church again. The Netherlands government wants people to practice the Christian Faith. In fact, if you aren’t a Christian that it will hinder your career in the Dutch government. I have no faith in this country! If it were up to me I’d immigrate to Australia. But that Australia has its problems too. All I want is a place to live where people will let me live in freedom and good health, because I feel the Dutch deliberately took both away from me. I find that they cannot get away with this!

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This week I added Google Adsense advertisements to some pages on this aljo-online.com website. I don’t have any commercials on this weblog, but for instance my forum does feature banners with sponsored links. Please click on these links.

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A few days ago I wrote here that I had a major problem with my weblog, that it featured weird characters in the texts after upgrading to the latest version of WordPress. Well, I just fixed it; I only needed to remove two settings in the configuration file. All is fine now and I am very pleased.

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Yesterday I encountered a major problem where this weblog is concerned. I got an error 403 a denial of access to a folder of my own website, and my weblog was totally messed up. I think this was caused by my webhosting provider but that I didn’t realize this at that moment. So because my webhosting provider told me the weblog software was to blame, I installed a totally new version of the WordPress weblog program. So now I have got the newest edition. After installing this software and running it for the first time, I got a message that this software was going to update my database (with texts). Unfortunately now my previous texts contain unwanted characters. I wouldn’t know how to fix this. I hope the readers of this weblog will accept this minor imperfection of my weblog. I think all new texts will be fine.

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