Archive for January, 2008
Current Dutch Government Policy (Concerning Me).
What the Dutch are doing to me at the moment is stealing my time. For instance I made an appointment with a Medical Specialist about my debilitating heart condition and if there is a way for me to keep doing things like going outside. Okay, I saw him, and our follow up appointment is in August. Why do I need to wait over 6 months for an opinion from this Doctor? The point is the Dutch know I don’t want to be in The Netherlands anymore, but that I cannot leave due to my failing health. They know I am not interested in Dutch women to have a relationship with (I am only interested in a relationship with a woman they consider too pretty for me). They know I cannot go abroad to find a woman to start a relationship with. So the people who control me are thinking let’s isolate him socially for a long period of time and he’ll give in eventually. Understandable, my age is not one of my strong points (I am 42); I should have been 15 years younger. Current Dutch policy is making me feel a strong disgust of all things Dutch. I want to be with this girl I have been in love with since 1994. But that the Dutch government acted to keep us apart. And that I am not going to let myself fall in love with any other Dutch woman ever again! Recently I realized that I did have a relationship with Beth (an AFN presenter on Soesterberg AB) for whom I waited for 3 years. Beth (on the phone with me): “Oh, I thought you were with me!” It wouldn’t surprise me if the American Government will give me a spouse, because I deserve it. Even though the Dutch government won’t like it, they will have to get used to it. For instance I am so glad I found this Canadian radio station called ’94.9 The Rock’ on the Internet! I never considered Canada as a country to be living in. But that I am feeling such a positive vibe from this radio station. I can understand why Canada is the World’s 4th most popular country to live in! Some other story I need to tell you. I remember how in 1989 I was admitted to a mental health center and that I talked to a male nurse and told him: “Lots of people in my hometown are gossiping about me, they must all know me in downtown bars!” He answered that this wasn’t the case and that I was suffering from a delusion. In 1989-1991 I went to a Country Music Bar in downtown Amersfoort every Saturday evening between 20:30 and 23:00. The regulars there knew me, but I thought this bar was awfully quiet. After about 1992 I haven’t been to any Amersfoort bar anymore. On all Dutch radio station 100%NL is a new song – which other stations won’t play – about me and how people know me in all bars in my hometown. (This song has a negative message about me… Artist: Speelman & Speelman.) A nurse will say: “this song is not about you”. I say: “I wish that were true, but truth of the matter is that over 50% of all their listeners make the connection!” This is so typically Dutch. I spent almost 5 years in a mental hospital, in retrospect only to make me age. That the Dutch wouldn’t set me free before age 40 and that if they were to set me free after age 40, that I would no longer be interested in The Netherlands. So the Dutch Government cut my income to a figure which is lower than Dutch law says I should get. It seems like the Dutch are looking for a way to get a hold on me, to manipulate me. And this makes me really hateful where The Netherlands is concerned. The Dutch government is to blame and that what I did made perfect sense and even was brilliant.
Aljo_
Fractal Site With Database.
Well, today I got my fractal site to function with a MySql database! After carefully following directions by other users of my Webhosting Provider, I got it to work! This is a lot of joy, but I will need to make a few minor adjustments to the current version. If you like you can visit my programming projects site. And if you do, please don’t forget to rate the fractals you make by clicking on the rating buttons under the picture. For your information this project was produced with Visual Web Developer 2008, the programming language is C# 2008. And the platform is ASP.NET 3.5 with a MySQL/.NET connector.
Aljo_
Depressed.
I am feeling depressed lately. It has to do with the fact that I am not free to – for instance – do my own thinking or grocery shopping. My freedom is denied to me. I like to sleep late, I don’t have anything useful to do anyway, when I sleep I am feeling good. I am hateful because I feel there are people who are deliberately causing my depressing feelings. The Dutch force me to listen to all Dutch radio station 100%NL and that the people of this radio station are getting more and more conservative where their music selection is concerned. I don’t want to listen to Dutch songs of before 1975. Right now I am listening to a Texas based country music radio station, they often play songs I know. But what the Dutch would do is put pressure on me while listening to Texan, Canadian or Australian radio via Internet, to make me switch to 100%NL. I have become so ugly, something the Dutch deliberately did to me. And that people dislike me because of my bad looks. If I were free I would immigrate to Australia, but I have a pacemaker so I cannot go anywhere. Basically the Dutch took away my good health, looks and then force me to listen to Dutch radio. I haven’t viewed hardly any Dutch TV since March of 2003. These people on Dutch TV cannot stop themselves from referring to me, to score and boost their number of viewers. While the Dutch made me very ugly, I find this too mean to even consider. No, I am no longer Dutch. And to discipline me the Dutch make me feel depressed over my lousy life. I cannot do with my time what I would want. I don’t have a girlfriend, I am not free to make photos for my website anymore, and so on. The Dutch want me to feel depressed because they are using me to brainwash Dutch society, so that young people will go to church again, marry and have children. It might be a success but I don’t care. My friends and me were deliberately denied all this or had to wait past age 35 for a relationship, because 1) we were interested in the US Air Force, 2) we considered the girls we knew ugly and 3) we weren’t interested in the church. Still I notice how many more pretty girls there are in my hometown these days, compared to when I was a teenager! While in high school the prettiest girls would drop out, and sexually active boys were manipulated to do the same grade twice. But this was such a long time ago. Still the fact that I am feeling depressed is because there are certain people who want me to feel depressed, to defeat me. And to punish me for not being interested in The Netherlands anymore. I am only here because I cannot leave because my failing health is turning me into a captive. But then I don’t have to work for a living, something I couldn’t do anyway. Still this feels like a fight with the Dutch authorities, and I need to leave if I would want a more meaningful life.
Aljo_
Religion.
There are people who control my thinking process, they make sure I cannot think when I need to. These people ‘play God’. And that these people force me to become religious again. By brainwashing me. Only because it is useful for them. I don’t mind being religious but I am not going to cooperate with people who are sabotaging my thinking process. Do you believe this is the truth?
Aljo_
Programming Progress, Part Nine.
Well, I have been doing some programming for use with my fractal drawing website. I made a class which does all sorts of things with a MySQL database, so that the fractal website can ‘remember’ which fractals people made and that people can select other people’s parameters and that this way the most beautiful fractals can be seen most often. My current fractal website doesn’t use a database yet, so people have to try random parameters resulting in boring pictures. What I want to do is let people rate the beauty of the fractals they see, in order for other people to quickly find the best pictures. The C# methods I made do things like: find the ID for the fractal when entered parameters, or insert parameters into the database, increase the number of views by one and enter a score by that viewer, and I made a method which asks for an ID and then returns the parameters which go with that ID. All this was about 90 to 120 minutes of work, which isn’t much. Visual Web Developer and the MySQL Query Browser are so user friendly, they are a joy to work with!
Aljo_