Aljo-Log

Archive for June, 2008

The Foo Fighters – Long Road To Ruin
Kid Rock – All Summer Long
Skid Row – I Remember You
Fastway – Say What You Will
Che’Nelle – I Fell In Love With The DJ

The Dutch who control me are putting mental pressure on me to make me unattractive, by causing wear and tear on my face and mind. I really want to leave The Netherlands, to a place where I am free to generate my own thoughts, where people won’t make me experience depressive feelings because they cannot accept the fact that I am happier in a country where people speak a different language. These people who made me bald and who are now causing lines on my face are so wrong. I wonder why they hate me, maybe because I preferred to listen to American military radio over Dutch radio, or maybe because I wanted a pretty girlfriend. I am not Dutch at all, so the Dutch ruined my health to make sure I couldn’t leave the country. I really would have married me an American military woman, and that the Dutch made sure I would not be able to be with my love. The Dutch are boycotting me where freedom and love are concerned, so why would I feel attached to this country? Should I get really confused mentally (maybe even psychotic) then I am sure this was deliberately done to me by people who have a remote handle on my thinking process. The motive would be that these people deny me my freedom, because I would do things with my freedom which the Dutch cannot accept but which aren’t illegal. There is no law saying that it is forbidden to marry a foreign woman, still the Dutch made sure I wouldn’t, isn’t this plain wrong by the Dutch? Because I was no longer interested in Dutch women certain people made me bald, even a shrink and a nurse participated in this process. How can such people who treat you take away your hair and still tell you that baldness is genetic? Or how can such a Doctor ruin your love life and still tell you that you are a Schizophrenic? While anybody would realize the truth is different? The Dutch cannot get away with ruining my looks, love life and life in general. I would have been happy and at home in America or Australia!

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I recently realized how the people who control me render me unable to think freely with my own mind. Many years ago I used to know a girl who had had a tumour removed from her brain, and that this must have been painful. I think that the Dutch make me experience this female’s pain when I am trying to think academically – for instance – to do programming, so I avoid this pain and stop using my mind, while I really want to think myself. I must be feeling someone else’s pain without realizing it! This is how these mental health care providers control my thinking process. If this really is the truth, then these care providers are not treating my illnesses but denying me my freedom. I find that the Netherlands government must set me free as soon as possible, and that I figure that should I ever get my freedom back that I would be better off in Australia or America. A government cannot take 20 years from your life, this is insane! Someone must have hated me, and I no longer consider myself to be Dutch, but that I am unable to leave and in the meantime I am only aging. Bastards!

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This is a funny cartoon about the Australian government’s policy on fuel prices.

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The Dutch won’t allow me to program my PC so they block my thinking process and erase what I learn from my mind instantly. This is for political reasons, these people are doing this to me on purpose, because they deny me my freedom. The Dutch want me to be Mr Average, because they are insane with jealousy that I have friends abroad, who happen to be important. The reason I have this thinking problem is because there are people who can do this to me, this must have to do with telepathy and souls. Something shrinks don’t believe in. Whatever the truth is, my condition isn’t Schizophrenia it is far more serious, I am not losing touch with reality I am simply not free to use my own mind. I think the Dutch are using me to change society. That my mental condition is needed for a mission by the Dutch government. Illness has got nothing to do with this. I want to become an Australian, because I want to be free and in control of my own life. The Dutch consider me property so they gave me a heart condition to make sure I would not be able to leave The Netherlands. This heart condition renders me unable to travel by air, so I couldn’t even fly to Australia or the USA if I wanted to. As it is I don’t consider myself to be Dutch anymore. This country no longer feels as my native country.

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I wonder if there is someone looking through my eyes with me when I am working on my computer. This person knows what I am trying to do and might frustrate my thinking process by keeping me away from the solution. This person who I call my ‘rider’ controls my consciousness that he or she can take over my decision making process. This makes me so mad, because there is no psychiatrist who will seriously consider this. While it must be the truth! U2 sing in one of their songs: “Through your eyes I could see.” What if there is a ‘foreign soul’ in my body who can overrule my own soul? This just might be possible. How am I ever going to get my self control back? If nobody will consider the truth? Maybe the Dutch secret service knows why my situation is the way it is, but that the Dutch Prime Minister might not be able to get me free. Maybe all this is part of a mission which is supported by over a dozen countries, then mission completion is more important than my mental freedom. These people can afford this I guess. Nothing my shrink can do about it.

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OpenGL is a platform independent software interface to be able to use graphics hardware. So OpenGL has to do with computer graphics. OpenGL was developed to be able to program 3D games, to make 3D game programming easier. OpenGL is meant to be used with C++. I would prefer to program OpenGL with C# but that the OpenGL version to be used in conjunction with C# might not be able to run on a Windows Vista computer. C# is meant to use DirectX as a graphics interface. But that I couldn’t find a book about C# and DirectX, so I decided to purchase this $20 book about OpenGL and it is precisely what I was looking for. The title is: Beginning OpenGL Game Programming, by Dave Astle and Kevin Hawkins. It even has a CDROM with all code from the book and extra chapters on it. This could be fun! Making ray tracing pictures without having to code it! In real time!

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Honeymoon Suite – What Does It Take
Streetheart – Hollywood
Rush – Freewill
Persuit of Happyness – I’m An Adult Now
The Tragically Hip – 38 Years Old

Lately I wonder what we do with all our wealth, while there is also a lot of poverty in our society because wealthy people push up prices. It must be possible to teach less wealthy people how to get more for the little money they have. For instance in America they build pickup trucks which are so rugged and well built that they could last a lifetime. I figure it doesn’t matter if you’ve got less choice in items like cars or other expensive things as long as the quality of such items is very good. In America you have a whole generation of university graduates who drive SUVs to show off their wealth and education. But then the gas price almost doubled in one year and now even these well paid people are figuring if they shouldn’t switch to a more economic type of car. I don’t mind that people with university degrees are paid a lot of money, but I figure they must drive up the price of certain items which is a problem for poor people who need to buy these items too! When you have a high income you can care for yourself, that you aren’t in need of government assistance. I am not trying to say that wealthy people need to pay more taxes, but that they cost the local government less, unlike poor people who need tax money to be able to afford things like health care insurance. And then there are people, like children, who aren’t rich and aren’t poor. It is important that such people learn to use their money efficiently, so that they end up costing the government less assistance (in the future). For instance I wanted to buy me a digital SLR camera, but that due to health concerns I am unable to go outside and make photos, so I decided not to make this investment. But this reminds me of 1998 when I bought a regular SLR which in retrospect I didn’t need, because my less professional SLR worked just as well. When you have money you want to spend it, but doesn’t our wealthy society endorse us to purchase items we really don’t need, or which aren’t exactly what we want? Getting more mileage out of your money is a good thing, making sure that things you buy is money well spent. Managing your personal budget can always be done better, this is an issue people need to learn more about. It is a good thing that PCs are less expensive compared to 10 years ago, but that these days there are so many brands and models of digital SLRs that it becomes hard to choose. Why have 15 options? Wouldn’t it be better to have only 5 options knowing that all five are good value for money and a good buy? If reducing options can be coupled with guaranteed quality then people will know they won’t be disappointed and at the same time these brands of good products can make more money! For instance about 6 months ago, I read somewhere that there were new InkJet printers introduced which produced good prints at the same or less cost compared to a Laser printer. Unfortunately when looking through brochures or searching the Internet there is no mention of where these ‘low cost per print’ InkJet printers are! While I would be interested in such a printer, just like lots of other people who are looking for a good deal printer. With lots of consumer items I get the impression that with each and every option there is a minus, a property of such an item which makes you consider other options. While I believe that producers of consumer goods can make products which are exactly what the consumer wants! But this would convince all consumers to buy that specific item and then all other competing brands would see their market share decimated. But for consumers wouldn’t this be a good sign? This is the point I am  trying to make…

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April Wine – Enough Is Enough
The Guess Who – Rain Dance
Brian McFadden – Like Only A Woman Can
Finger Eleven – I’ll Keep Your Memory Vague
Puddle Of Mudd – Psycho