Aljo-Log

Archive for November, 2008

Lately I am listening a lot (over 6 hours a day) to Arrow Classic Rock - a Dutch radio station. I like them, but that their evening show (19.00-21.00 CET) is a big turn off, so most days I switch off this radio station before 8 pm. My problem is that they play songs during this show which I don’t want to hear. I like to listen to Australian, Canadian and American radio instead. Unfortunately these foreign radio stations don’t want me to be a regular listener because they don’t want to be an alternative for Dutch radio.
I built a new version of my Amersfoort website, and that I wrote a few emails to Microsoft with questions about Expression Web 2 which I am using to build these websites. It appears to me how well my personality would fit in with a company like Microsoft. However the Dutch government (and maybe even the EU Commission) deny me a job with a non European company, as if they own me! My health was rendered totally impossible, which makes me unable to work for a living. The Dutch say I won’t get my independence as long as I am single. This is blackmail! This is so wrong! I am totally unable to be with anyone! What if I prefer an American or Australian woman over a Dutch woman? Would the Europeans allow me to be with a foreign woman? They won’t!
This is the situation I find myself in. I love English language radio and I figure I would fit in – as an employee – with an American IT company. Issues which might be annoying to the Dutch government, but that my personal happiness is more important to me.

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I just put the new version of my old Amersfoort website online. I made this new homepage with Microsoft Expression Web 2. I like it, it took me about a week to complete which was about 16 to 20 hours of work.

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If the USA doesn’t torture, then why do I have to put up with Dutch mental health care officials who are remotely brainwashing and molding me? That my soul is up into some other person and that the soul of some shrink is in my body. This afternoon I was once again confronted with a lot of negative energy, as if a dark cloud had descended on me. It has been clear to me for years that I have a rider who controls me like a regular rider controls a horse, but that of course nobody is going to admit this! It sure is a lot of comfort to know that Australia would let me in. If I would be hired by Microsoft the Netherlands government would sanction me. But then I belong in an American corporation like Microsoft. Does the Netherlands government have the right to deny me this? Of course not! Will anyone stop the local government from forbidding me this? I am afraid not. So the government is getting away with stealing two decades from my life and giving me 4 significant health concerns in the process. It sure is good that I have this weblog to tell my side of the story.

Aljo_

PS, I feel how there are people who can who are in fact channelling sexual energy through my face to make me unattractive, but that nobody would believe me.

The Beatles sing this line. I feel like a horse myself. That there is someone else who is in fact controlling my consciousness. For instance when I need to read something from my computer screen that the information doesn’t reach my brain. Because my rider stops this information  from reaching my consciousness. This gets me so angry that freedom of thought is denied to me, and that everybody says it is a disease. But then how about my own thoughts being negated. That Aljo wants to think ‘hot’ and that his rider turns it into ‘cold’. So that Aljo then gets cold water where he wanted hot water. Or how about me wanting to think ‘dishwasher’ and that my rider turns it into ‘refrigerator’ so that Aljo opens the door to the fridge instead of the dishwasher. This happens to me every time I try to think my own thoughts. I just don’t think this is a disease, I feel this is a controlled process. I am so frustrated with the fact that I am not free to do my own thinking, that I shout “Set me free to do my own thinking!”, or “Give me freedom of thought!” And those shrinks keep on saying that it is a symptom of my mental condition, but then what else could they do?

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