Aljo-Log

Archive for March, 2009

I am learning so many German words, I can actually make a conversation with a real German. I feel the Dutch government has been ruining my life for decades and that these people now have to face justice because everybody here (and there) knows just what they did to me. If I made friends abroad, that the Dutch can send their foreign minister there and turn my new friends into enemies. But then Hillary Clinton comes along and tells these people: “Don’t listen to that Dutch foreign minister…” I feel I have the right to move out of the Netherlands, because the Dutch envy me a life with a free mind (and body). It is so easy for any government to single out one individual – me – and poison him and impose their will onto him. As I see it now, there were basically two reasons why the Dutch made my life impossible. 1) I no longer went to church and that the Dutch government panicked and made me psychotic thinking I was God. 2) I had very powerful friends in America – like Ronald Reagan – and that the Dutch couldn’t accept that I would choose for America and basically be bigger than them. This also is the reason why I never had a girlfriend, except for Beth  the AFN Soesterberg presenter. The Dutch would never let me love America and a Dutch girl at the same time. So I gave up on Dutch females all together, I am not going to be heart broken over any Dutch woman ever again. The Dutch want me to yearn for a Dutch woman. I have been subjected to house arrest for over 3 years and this is all politically motivated! Just like how I was kicked off university because of my affection for American military radio. I haven’t listened to Dutch public radio since 1983. It is official German government policy that the Germans will give to me what the Dutch have denied to me for all these years. I love those German TV series. Just like how Canadian radio station The Rock is so much better than Dutch Arrow Classic Rock, but that Dutch people don’t know any better. I feel I have a right to immigrate abroad, even though my pacemaker is a problem, and that I am convinced that this pacemaker was deliberately done to me to lock me up, chain me to a pole. There are basically two issues that have to be resolved. 1) there should be a country willing to take me in and 2) I should be able to physically get there. The Dutch have no right to deny me to leave the Netherlands for the rest of my life. This is slavery. This is blackmail. I have the physical state of a 90 year old, my legs are weak, my heart aches, I couldn’t care for a family.  I feel this was deliberately done to me by the Dutch. The Netherlands is a Third World democracy. I am living the life of a zoo animal, because the Dutch didn’t allow me to live the way I would have wanted because I would have moved to Frankfurt/Main to be with my American and German friends. Something the Dutch will never accept. A judge isn’t going to convict himself. “I find myself not guilty.” I am looking for a home, knowing that the Dutch want to lock me away in some place where the government can torture me without having to fear to be held accountable. For years the Dutch have been making me age. During this time I was not free to have a social life. The Dutch treat me like an animal, like a dog or a horse. The Dutch mental health care providers consider me a convict. Just like Dutch radio which keep on playing American rapper Akon. Having a conflict with the Dutch government isn’t the same as being a delinquent. Even though the Dutch government isn’t going to admit defeat so they keep on ruining my life. I really need to leave here, The Netherlands is no longer my native country.

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The Dutch health care workers who look after me, are doing all they can to make me feel depressed. Like how I am not free to do things. That I don’t have a girlfriend and hardly any regular friends. These people know that I will never be allowed by the Netherlands government to work for a living. So there is no way I could ever get married and start a family. But that this got to be this way because the government denies me this, not because I am chronically ill. Maybe my health problems were deliberately done to me! The Dutch cannot stand the idea that I am still loving my American military friends of 20 years ago, and that I am not religious the way they demand. It would be best for all of us, if I would immigrate to Australia. The Dutch hold me captive. There is no need for my life to go to hell.

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I have been reading books about how to program the browser plug-in Silverlight. The programming language is C#, and I know this language. Also Silverlight is not too difficult to learn. If you like click to my Silverlight test page. It is so nice to be able to program in C# with ASP.NET for every browser that has a Silverlight plug-in. There also is a program called Expression Blend, which is used to make state of the art ‘skins’ for a Silverlight website. This is a so called Rich Internet Application. I am using Visual Web Developer and the Silverlight SDK which are both free from Microsoft and this is all you need to build Silverlight websites. I can recommend it!

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I am reading this book titled: “Beginning OpenGL – Game Programming”, by Astle and Hawkins. OpenGL is an Open Source graphics interface. It can be used to build state of the art computer games. With this book comes a CD with the C++ sources, and in chapter 9 there are three example programs that render so called textures. A texture is a picture which is drawn on top of a 3D object like a sphere or a cube. In this example the main sphere is like a mirror. This looks brilliant but it really isn’t all that complicated. The endless possibilities are what makes it difficult. It is like reading a book, which is a lot easier than writing your own book. OpenGL is a lot of fun to work with. I can recommend it.

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The mental health care professionals who are responsible for my treatment are categorically denying the truth about my situation. It seems to me that I am being used for some social mission and that for this reason certain people refuse to set my mind free. I suspect that there are people who can remotely put my brain in sleep mode. That every time when I want to use my mind for thinking about – for instance – programming that these people deny me this and instead make my mind go dormant. As you can understand this gets me really angry. My situation is like that Culture Club song from the 1980s ‘Church Of The Poisoned Mind’. That the main reason and justification for my mental condition is that I stopped going to church at age 18. But that when I tried to tell my shrink about my religious believes he ridiculed me!  While this is what my problems are all about… A mental hospital and a prison have lots of similarities. You wouldn’t want to be in either. Who tells the government to be fair? Aren’t all those Christian politicians planning a way to make sure that in  the future the church will still exist? Who will make sure these people play by the rules? Who is the Tax Man? “I fought the law and the law won…” These things are on my mind this week.

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I am reading text books about programming, and that I feel like I am really understanding this. It is relatively easy to understand, there are simply a lot of things you need to know. But that at the same time, I also feel that there are certain people who are denying me free thought, who render me unable to concentrate and remember what I learned. This is really frustrating and it makes me very angry. Sure, I am on disability pay but that shouldn’t be a justification to deny me the freedom to use my own mind for what I would want myself.

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