Aljo-Log

Archive for May, 2009

There is this new Krimi on ZDF it is titled Der Kriminalist and it is about the Berlin Police Department. The police investigator is called Hauptkommissar Bruno Schumann, his sidekick is called Kommissar Henry Weber. The main character became a police inspector because his father was a policeman too. I saw about three episodes so far and I really enjoyed them. The plots are very entertaining and realistic and the acting is really convincing too. Unfortunately this show was only on in May of 2009, I don’t know when there will be any new episodes.

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I read on the Internet last week that Jay Leno was doing his last The Tonight Show after 17 years. This is sad, I actually liked his show! Not that we got to see it on Dutch television, as if Dutch TV broadcasts shows you would want to see. We do get David Letterman on Dutch TV with subtitles, which is entertaining but unable to keep my attention like Jay Leno could. Many years ago Jay Leno was on NBC-Europe with The Tonight Show but that I reckon when the NBC realized they had an American show that could get them a share of the European television market that they immediately took it off the air again! Still, you were great Jay!

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There are people manipulating my thinking process, that they derail my thoughts and render me unable to remember things. It is as if when Aljo wants to think or do something that these people make him do the exact opposite and negate the thoughts on his own mind! Shrinks think this is a sign of mental illness, I think this is part of a war. Who would control my mind, if I don’t control it myself? And would Dutch Prime Minister Balkenende have anything to decide about this? Would he be responsible or do I need to get mad at someone else? I need to regain the control over my own brain! I don’t care if that would mean I need to move to Australia. This rider has to leave me alone! There must be so many people generating thoughts on my mind, that when Aljo tries to generate a thought by himself that those are the thoughts that his rider alters. So I get frustrated that my mind is no longer obeying me and I start to shout and curse. Which is hard to understand by people who don’t have this problem. I find it perfectly normal that I am having problems containing myself when this rider refuses to let me think and remember thoughts on my own mind.

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I cannot remember anything anymore, that all my thoughts that I try to think are being erased. This is deliberate because knowledge is power and that the Dutch want to overpower me, because I happen to know the how and why about a lot of things. Also my hair loss was deliberately done to me, to take away my ability to be a public figure. Who would be responsible for all bad things which have been done to me to hurt me? The shrinks who treated me and wanted to use me to correct all youths who no longer wanted to go to church? I need to leave the Netherlands, but this is impossible with my failing health. Just because the government has the power doesn’t mean they have the right to abuse it on me! I am living the life of a dog instead of a human being. The people who are doing this to me are committing a crime! Someone should stop them.

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There is this new computer animated movie released, it is titled: ‘Up’. I saw some trailers of it on TV and it is really a feel good movie. This movie reminds me of my friend Ray whom I phoned regularly at work in Frankfurt am Main Germany where he worked as Head Radio Production for American military radio until his retirement in January of 2003. We share a passion for radio and we shared ideas about what the differences between Americans and Europeans are. American military people are loyal friends, they used to be a large part of my life…

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I have a pacemaker which is contributing to the impossibility of my life. I think this heart condition was deliberately done to me because the Dutch government realized that I was no longer interested in my native country anymore. That the Dutch authorities envied me my love for American women whom I used to know in person. That the Dutch programmed me in such a way that my heart would start to hurt when I fell in love with a woman who wasn’t a Dutch native. This makes perfect sense, but that there is a reason why I am not interested in Dutch women. Dutch women were kept away from me for years, there is no doubt in my mind that I am more compatible with women with an Anglo-Saxon background and countries like Australia than Dutch women and that there is no justification or truth about the fact that me loving foreign women would cause my heart to ache because in reality I would be more in love with a Dutch woman. I just don’t buy that! In the mean time this heart condition is really bad, and that I knew back in 1984 while I was in Australia that I really shouldn’t return to The Netherlands and should have stayed in Tasmania instead if I wanted a normal life. The Dutch never intended to turn me into an independent, educated, good looking adult, and I hate them for this.

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I remember when the 32nd Tactical Fighter Squadron was still here, that on Memorial Day there would always be a 5 ship formation flying over Amersfoort in V-formation after returning from a ceremony on Margraten cemetery where American soldiers killed in action in World War II are buried. President Bush was there last year. On Memorial Day the Americans remember all American soldiers killed in action since 1776 when the United States of America was founded. In all over 1.3 million people.

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I am always inside in my apartment, and that it feels like as if my home is one big isolation cell. I don’t need to be in such a cell. But that the Netherlands government wants to brainwash me, that my isolation is because of the National Interest. Because I can give the government leverage over Dutch society. I don’t give a f##k about The Netherlands anymore. These people deny me the freedom to think and turned my life into punishment. I am totally unable to determine what I think about, I cannot even read a text book about computer programming, because my brain is obeying someone else. These mental health care providers also made me ugly, because they wanted to make me hurt in public. It is like that band ‘the All American Rejects’, that our love for our F-15 squadron pissed certain people off, and that the government can get away with anything, shrinks and psychiatric nurses in particular. How these people refused to believe American pop singer Pink was inspired by my American military radio presenter girlfriend Beth, and that they called all my thoughts ‘coping strategies’, that according to them the truth is that I am just a crazy mental patient and that nobody important knows me. I am no longer interested in the Netherlands anymore, I don’t know anything about Dutch politics anyway, because I haven’t viewed hardly any Dutch television in over 6 years. For instance, I am not allowed to have a child, so I am being isolated until it is evident to everybody that I have become too old to become a father. I am no longer interested in Dutch women anymore anyway, sure I might have aspects which would be interesting to Dutch females, but that they really don’t want a relationship with me. I have a loving memory for American women like: Kim, Liz, Beth, Julie, Tammy and Debbie. But that the Americans couldn’t hurt Dutch pride so much to give me a ‘real’ American fiancée. The Dutch didn’t allow me to marry me an American woman and move to America, but that they didn’t allow me to get a Masters Degree either. I have had it with this country. I want to migrate to Tasmania, but that I won’t get there without a fight. And that the Dutch will destroy me before setting me free to leave. I do believe however that in the end I will be wherever I would want to be – Australia, Germany or The Netherlands – , because sooner or later I will get my free will back.

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Kudelka is a cartoonist for The Australian, today I found this drawing by him in The Australian. This is really funny and well thought.

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The Irish band U2 made a song years ago, which had a lyric going like: “The heart is a bloom, that shoots up from the stony ground.” I have a pacemaker and that in Tasmania – where I want to live -  there are a lot of stones in the ground. I reckon what U2 is trying to say here is that I got my heart condition because of the fact that I wanted to move to Australia. How in the 1980s there was a show on Dutch radio Friday evenings which started with a jingle of the song ‘Kick start My Heart ‘ by Motley Crue which never made it into the Dutch chart, while I have the album ‘Dr Feelgood’. At the time I listened to American military radio and that the Dutch sanctioned this with a heart condition, to explain this jingle. Also American country icon George Strait has a lyric going like: “When you hear twin fiddle and a steel guitar, you’re listening to the sound of the American heart.” Even though country music meant a lot to me, I never wanted to move to America. I did consider that should I marry me an American military woman, that I could end up anywhere in the world. Because of health problems I am not free to control my own fate, and that U2 also sing about “The traffic is stuck and you are not moving anywhere.” I had to wait for almost 5 years for a place to live. This was due to the Dutch government denying me a ‘free’ life. So I thought to myself: “Who am I kidding? I do want to immigrate to Tasmania! What do I care about what opinion U2 has about it.” My heart condition was done to me, to force me to co-operate with what the Netherlands government wanted from me. That this only strengthened my resolve to want to immigrate to Australia is only a matter of justice. If Australia wants me, I am out of here!

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