Aljo-Log

Archive for August, 2009

This is a photo of the Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd, he has been in office for about one year. He is a member of the Australian Labor Party.

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This is a cartoon from The Australian, by Nicholson, it makes fun of the Australian Rudd government’s stimulus package. The left character says to the other: “Those stimulus package buildings all look a bit bland…”, says the other: “Just following the template, mate…” When you look more closely at the building you see it is the face of Prime Minister Kevin Rudd and the chimney is in the profile of Deputy Prime Minister Julia Gillard. This is very funny.

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Last week I was watching the television news when they showed a trailer for the movie ‘Julie & Julia’. This movie is based on two true stories. One about the wife of an American diplomat – Julie – in France, who out of boredom starts to follow French cooking lessons. And that she likes it so much that she becomes a TV personality in America in the 1950s, teaching her viewers how to cook. Then the second story is that of a young woman – Julia – who lives in modern times and who has a job at some helpdesk and she is inspired by Julie’s TV shows, so she decides to write a cook book with recipes from  Julie’s TV shows. This book actually exists for real. This movie is about cooking and about love in different times, the 1950s and the 2000s. I sure would like to see this movie.

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Most people would like to be on television, I don’t because then people would get to see how unattractive I have become. I am 43 years old, but that one of the characters on Dutch television which people associate with me is over age 60. It has become clear to me that the Netherlands government confiscated my youth, as if being age 40+ still qualifies me as being young! All those shrinks, nurses and friends who told me all those years that I was delusional when I told them that people gossiped about me and that there were television shows about me, can no longer deny this anymore because of the fact that these shows are more and more explicit about me. It aren’t just sitcoms there also is this stand up comedian who goes into great detail about how me and my relatives function together socially. I don’t appreciate this one bit! Because the same people deny me my freedom and the opportunity to live my life by starting a family. Even though I couldn’t care for a family with all my health conditions. This was deliberately done to me! While these television stations kept making more and more money off me and my story, I reckon I could ask for favors in return. It is suggested to me that I will get the opportunity to study at some university, which is something I am absolutely not interested in. I am too old for studying. American radio pays well too probably much better than Dutch television and they want to hire me! If I were on Dutch television in person people would all be able to check out my bald head and my weird eyes and so on. But that this would make people realize instantly that there actually were people who deliberately took my beauty away. Which is a crime, a government sponsored crime, because the government played a role in this too. They didn’t stop these people and maybe wanted my ugliness too. Because with me being ugly more people would be considered attractive. This is a simple situation.

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This is Horst Schlämmer a German comedian, who made a movie about how he joined in the race to become the next German Chancellor (Bundeskanzler). I have seen him several times on television and that he is like an ‘ordinary’ German. How he wouldn’t use the Kanzleramt in Berlin should he be elected – because he says he couldn’t deal with all the stairs in the building – but would govern the country from his small town hometown instead. Maybe people in Germany are losing faith in their political leaders and that this is what Schlämmer’s movie is all about. I didn’t know Horst Schlämmer before, like Sasha Baron Cohen with Ali G he is also an actor who plays a certain fictive character in the ‘real’ world. Even though theoretically he could be elected and then who would he be? Himself or this character? How he arranged a press conference announcing “Isch Kandidiere” which was needed to be added to his movie to add realism. That people realize that being a politician isn’t always easy but that these politicians are real people.

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This is Eline, she ran for office in the European Parliament for a pan European party called ‘Libertas’. I voted for her but she didn’t get enough votes to get a seat in the European Parliament. Eline is 29 years old and has a lot of similarities in her appearance with the girl I have been in love with for a long time. Except my love interest isn’t an academic like Eline. When Eline was on television I used to wonder about how my love interest would do this, this is why I kind of liked to view Dutch television with the debates between candidates running for public office whenever Eline participated. Eline must be really smart and well informed because like a government leader she has an opinion on everything, she writes lots of articles and does interviews with newspapers. While since she failed in her bid to make it into the European Parliament she still is in the limelight, it is nice that she is so attractive, smart and a pleasant personality, she should have a future in politics. Still one final point, Eline scored 150 votes in my hometown, and that I wondered if people here had noticed that Eline is so similar to my love interest who also used to live in this town.

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I really no longer want to be in The Netherlands, but that with my pacemaker and other chronic health conditions – which were most likely deliberately done to me – I couldn’t even make it outside of my hometown. I also blame the Americans for not letting me be with one of their women who was mutually in love with me and who meant so much to me. Because the Dutch denied me a Dutch alternative for an American girlfriend, these people only will let me be with one woman to marry, and that I have two options about whom I cannot make up my mind. All this was planned and coordinated by the government, no matter what I’d have done things wouldn’t have been any different. Australia doesn’t want me because they have bigger Dutch friends than me, and the Netherlands government would tell the Australian government: “You cannot have Aljo!” I would also like to move to Germany, which is a whole different ballgame. Germany is a neighboring country and part of the EU so nobody has the right to tell me that I cannot move there. But that nobody has the right to give you a heart condition either. I am going to learn German if I could. I already know lots of words but German grammar is really difficult. And my memory is really bad. I wrote a letter to the Dutch Prime Minister and someone changed the person who controls my consciousness. So now I actually know the person who is making my decisions, but this doesn’t change how I feel about this country. Because of my failing health I am not free to live my life the way I would want to and I am absolutely furious that all this was actually deliberately done to me. I haven’t viewed hardly any Dutch television since March of 2003, and I view German TV instead, which I really enjoy a lot. I would feel at home in Germany, but that with all my health problems, I wouldn’t be able to understand what all these Medical Doctors in Germany would be telling me. Being so depending on medical care to a point where it controls your life is really bad. This is by an evil genius who couldn’t control me, but could control my health. I am not interested in studying at a university, all the math which I wouldn’t grasp, even though I would have been able to make it to a Masters Degree in the 1980s. But that the government had other plans with me. So now I am only interested in working for an American IT company anywhere in The Netherlands. Even though this will probably never happen, because the Dutch will never fix my health enough so that I could hold a job, they probably couldn’t and wouldn’t. My life is passing me by, because these people deny me control over myself. And if my mind were free, my legs and heart would still ruin things. Again this was deliberately done to me! I am mad to say the least.

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I figure the Netherlands government deliberately gave me weak legs. My leg muscles have weakened so much that I can no longer get back on my feet by myself anymore, when I fall in the street. How the Dutch deny me to stand on my own two feet, how they envy me my self determination and use my weak legs to overpower me to impose their will on me. I hate the Dutch for this, I am merely like a tool to them. My legs are never going to get any better anymore according to the Medical Doctors I saw, so how am I ever going to live a normal life in freedom and in control of my own destiny? This is like the taming of a wild horse, that I will have to give in to the will of my rider, even though my consciousness is not my own so this rider wouldn’t be taming me in the first place. My legs are deliberately hurting because these Dutch people want to overpower me even in my own consciousness! Because my legs are a ‘real’ part of my body and personality. While a consciousness is something abstract. This is how this feels to me. These Dutch people deny me my freedom! Because they use me to manipulate Dutch society! I cannot even think freely, how I keep on writing depressing posts like this one on my weblog, because I am unable to think about anything else. There must be people from Australia reading this, but that they don’t show up in my statistics. Like how my weak legs deny me my freedom of movement, it also denies me freedom of thought, because I tend to change the subject I am thinking about when my legs start to feel cramped, which is exactly what these people want. I shouldn’t have to be here.

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I am not free to think, I cannot even open a book and read. Today I am realizing that my thinking process must be similar to that of a dog. This gets me kind of angry that these mental health care providers or the Netherlands government are actually doing this to me. There is this song with a line: “Religion is a smile on a dog.” I think religion has to be the motivation for the Netherlands government to deny me my freedom of thought. There is no doubt in my mind that all this is deliberate, because they bragged about it on Dutch radio. How I am being socially isolated probably to change my way of thinking and what I care about. I am only getting older and older and there is nothing I can do with my life because the Netherlands government reckons I am the individual that has to be sacrificed to make the species survive. All this is making me think about that I would be better off in Australia, but that there is no way that I could work for a living. Would a dog work for a living? A trained dog could become a movie star! But I am not an animal and that I feel the Netherlands government denies me all knowledge I gained during the past 25 years because I was trained by the American military. I sure wish I could leave this country, but that my pacemaker was only intended to chain me to my hometown. Again I find this cowardice, mean and wrong by the government to mentally and physically hold me hostage because I give them leverage over Dutch society. Bastards.

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PS, I remember how when I was in university in the 1980s, that there was a woman in our building who always brought her dog with her to work. And that at some point in time, I must have thought to myself: “That dog wouldn’t be me, would it? If it is, who is doing my studying?” It wouldn’t surprise me today, that when in university I did not do my own studying! But that when you are a student that you don’t want to be a pet.

PPS, If I really ‘am a dog’, then it makes perfect sense that I am not free to think and act like a human being.

I have been to Australia twice and I never was in North America. I found this radio station – which I really like – in Canada almost two years ago while I have been listening to Australian radio since 2004. I like to listen to foreign radio, because it gives you a feel of what a country is like. These days I listen to several Canadian radio stations. It is hard to tell the precise difference between Canada and Australia, both of these countries still have ties with Britain, and that you can tell that both countries are immigrant countries. In Australia they play Cricket in Canada they play Ice Hockey. How the capital of Canada Ottawa is the coldest capital city in the world, where Australia is kind of hot. Canada has a far bigger economy than Australia. The Netherlands has several large corporations like SHELL, ING and Philips. I wonder sometimes if Dutch business people would contact people in Australia to tell them to hurt my feelings, I reckon that they could do so if they wanted to. How on Canadian radio they feature a Heineken commercial since a few weeks. I have mixed feelings where my being Dutch is concerned. After all these people kicked me off university, turned me into a mental patient and then made me really unattractive. I think they did this because the American military showed an interest in me, and that they couldn’t let this be and that they used me as an example as to what can happen to you when you are not loyal. President Bush Senior showed an interest in me, which was only the beginning of my political career abroad. I learned that you have to invest in people when they are down, because only then you will be able to make a profit and reach satisfaction. How I got to know Beth and Julie, who both made it to become inspiration for world wide pop icons. The Americans taught me: “It is not what you know, it is who you know.” I made friends in American radio and that I feel the US Air Force carefully selected Beth and Julie to get to know me, because the Air Force felt these women had potential. I think anybody can be a star, everybody has got something special. But that it comes down to what you as a star would add to the entertainment business. That you inspire kids to be good, or be a learning experience to teach kids how to avoid pitfalls everybody has to deal with. In 1999 I used to email twice a week with Vanessa a girl from Tasmania, but that I never got to see a picture of her, maybe she wasn’t good looking. Still she too became inspiration for an Australian pop star, and that this particular star is a projection of Vanessa’s personality and background. Tasmania is far away from major Australian cities, and has maybe only 300,000 to 400,000 inhabitants on the whole island so most bands touring in Australia don’t perform in Tasmania. I reckon this means that people in Tasmania listen to local bands performing. So that there are bands who are stars in Tasmania because they are local celebrities. Also nationally successful artists in Australia move to the Uk or the USA to break through in Europe, America or even globally. To work with producers who are more experienced than Australian producers. I know a lot of Australian hits which I heard on Australian radio, but that I cannot remember which song is by which artists and what it sounds like. While I also know Canadian bands of whom I instantly recognize their tunes, band name and title of a song. Canadian bands compete on the American market, where Australian bands rarely make it outside of Australia. Australians are more creative where music is concerned, where Canadians are able to produce songs which go on to become classics. Australian classics most of the time don’t become hits outside the country. So Australia and Canada share lots of similarities and opposites but are both special.

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