Aljo-Log

Archive for November, 2009

This is a funny cartoon from The Australian, drawn by Peter Nicholson. It shows Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd carrying the globe while other world leaders are partying. The point is that Australia notices it first when the global temperature goes up. Besides that Southern Australia is in the hole of the Ozone layer over the South Pole. So emissions of green house gasses affect Australia the most compared to other countries.

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This is a cartoon by Bill Leak ‘Bleak’ as featured in The Australian. Bleak likes to portray Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd as Tin Tin. This cartoon shows Mrs Therese Rudd – the Australian First Lady – in the super market with her husband in the cart. Kevin and Therese met during an introduction at university, where PM Rudd studied Mandarin and Mrs Rudd studied something like Psychology. University introductions are ideal to find a love interest.

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I very much enjoy viewing the ZDF news titled ‘heute’. The 9.45 pm news is presented by Claus Kleber and Gundula Gause. Today I was surfing the internet and found this picture, inspired by these two news anchors, still a little bit different, but really amusing.

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There is a new police drama series (in German they call this a ‘Krimi’) on ZDF titled Flemming. It is about a police psychologist who – together with his colleagues – tries to solve crimes. This show is so different from other similar drama series, that it is really interesting. I can recommend it. Fridays 21:15 on ZDF.

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Lately I am wondering if there is a correlation between my inability to think freely and the fact that there are people trying with all measures they can to get people back into church again. As they say “Jesus works in people”. That in my situation certain people can totally take over my thinking process as if I were someone else. This is something only God could do, until some country discovered a way to enable people to do this too. How my mind doesn’t obey my soul, as if my soul’s place  has been taken over by someone else’s soul. The government of the Netherlands would try to save the church if they could. How we have a minister for family matters and youth. While when I was in my twenties none of my friends even had a girlfriend. Probably because the government denied us this and now we have a minister for this! As if the government doesn’t realize they sabotaged our relational situation for decades. This isn’t even funny. It are the pure thoughts like “I want to do this” which are being altered or erased from my mind. When Aljo tries to anticipate he needs to think pure thoughts which his rider won’t let him do, so I cannot anticipate at all. Random thoughts like “nice cup of coffee”, thoughts which could have been thought by other people than Aljo are in fact going ahead normally. When my rider is blocking my brain because I am trying to think pure thoughts it gets me so angry that I start to shout and curse as loud as I can. I find that the Netherlands government is committing a crime by denying me freedom of thought. I don’t care for what reason they are doing this. But it would make sense because mental health and religion do have a lot in common. That it is religion that determines what is normal and what isn’t. That I was no longer normal because I no longer attended church. I find this wrong. How during my studies at university I needed to confer with other students about how to do certain things because I couldn’t do it by myself because the Dutch denied me to be autonomous. As if I were like a woman in a relationship. The Netherlands government is stealing time from me! This is a government sponsored crime and much more serious than the Iran Contra situation when Reagan was President ever was. But then the government gets away with everything.

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I sometimes wonder, if I had been allowed to live a healthy life, that I would most likely have gotten a Masters Degree and would have immigrated to Australia. Or I would have married me an American military woman. I probably hadn’t remained Dutch. What would the educators of a country like The Netherlands want in return for their efforts? Lately I feel as if the Dutch are erasing from my mind all knowledge I took in at the local school and university. But that it was President Bush Senior who educated me. The Dutch wouldn’t have the right to take this experience away from me. College in Australia was so much more fun than grammar school in The Netherlands. For instance in Germany students are demonstrating for the fact that they don’t want to pay for their college tuition, but that the German government could ask for something in return for this. Of course there is no such thing as a free lunch, but teachers cannot undo an education out of frustration because you have become very different from what they wanted.

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My mind refuses to remember, my legs hurt all the time, my eyes are clouded and I am not free to make my own decisions. All this was deliberately done to me, and that the Dutch government had decided thirty years ago, that I would never have a normal love life and become an autonomous adult. But this lack of freedom is what hurts me the most these days. Freedom of thought and freedom of movement. This is being denied to me. How I wanted a pretty girlfriend, but that it wasn’t me who decided who was pretty and who was ugly, that there was someone making me think “you’re ugly” about every girl I would meet. Even though I feel the Netherlands government must have controlled very precisely whom I would and wouldn’t meet. Recently I realized that when two people start a relationship that it isn’t only because they are in love, but also because they get the blessing from their parents. How young women fall in love with males their families like and not according to their own opinions. So if families don’t like you then you will never get to be with such a female. And if the government doesn’t like you then no family will like you either. Until you fall in love with a foreign woman then the government will try to steal you away from such a woman, by offering you someone you might like better. But of course the government doesn’t allow me to start a family, so they wouldn’t actually introduce me to someone with whom I could be. The Dutch committed a crime where my personal history is concerned.

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Today it is Saturday 2:44 AM, on Dutch radio is a talk show with as theme ‘pretty versus ugly.’ When I was 21 years old I looked really good. But then I left the church and the Dutch authorities sanctioned me and turned me into a mental patient. After I became a mental patient I was introduced to cigars and started to smoke very heavily, now my teeth are no longer white and this resulted in two women being able to remove my hair. These days I am completely bald and that I have become really ugly and a piece of trash. Thinking back about my situation I figure these Dutch mental health care providers deliberately made me addicted to cigars, they deliberately manipulated me in such a way that I would lose my hair and beauty, they needed me ugly. While my female shrink refused to believe my explanation of by whom, how and when my hair had been taken away from me. The Dutch deliberately wanted me unattractive, to deny me a pretty girlfriend, sabotage my relational situation. Because I cared much more for my American military radio station than any Dutch radio station. I wish I could immigrate to Australia, even though it is too late for that now with my three chronic conditions and my bad eyes. I hate the Netherlands but I am chained to this place. And then being confronted with people who take cheap shots at my ugliness. I need my life back even though things will never be good again.

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PS, But Kommissar Stolberg on ZDF last Friday evening was a really nice episode, that running away from your problems isn’t the solution.

My mind isn’t free I have this rider who overrules my decisions. This is probably a new aspect of biological warfare in the fight to keep the church alive. How I do things I don’t want to do because this rider manipulates my decision making process. Yesterday I crashed two computers, and that I got the clear impression that my rider was to blame for this. Then I get mad and start to curse: Jesus Goddamned. But this rider is constantly confronting me with the seriousness of what happened, so instead of keeping on cursing I start to shout: God almighty help me. Because this rider is brainwashing me into becoming a devout Christian. How today Aljo thought “I am going to put on a scarf for the first time this fall/winter”, and so I wrapped this scarf around my neck and then when I walked outside I realized I had forgotten to put my hat on so now my neck was warm but my head wasn’t. This is what this rider does that when Aljo tries to think a pure thought that he alters thoughts until my pure thought has been changed. I am so angry over this. I need my freedom of thought back!

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PS, I do feel lately that my rider is Dutch, and that the Dutch government has no justification to deny me freedom of thought if they really control my thinking process!

We all know this song by the Beatles. But recently I realized that maybe you cannot buy yourself any love, you can in fact sell love. How the Dutch realized 30 years ago that I wouldn’t be with someone I would have fallen in love with. So that they kept on compensating me for being single. Like:”We cannot get you a woman you would desire but we can pay you anything you want.” What kind of Devilish proposal is this? Think about it.

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