Aljo-Log

Archive for February, 2010

I am realizing that the Netherlands government is trying to create strong women who will have a husband and children. My problem is that I am weak, due to all these health problems I have, and that I am being denied a wife or even children. That the government thinks it is a sign of strength beating me up. How Dutch girls are so lonely, which makes perfect sense because all they do is reject guys who are in love with them and give away love they are offered. Dutch girls have an attitude about that they decide themselves who they fall in love with, like: “I don’t care that you are in love with me, I decide myself whom I am in love with.” How most Dutch girls probably have an ex, because they want to be in control of their love lives – which makes sense – so when they have to make a decision about whom they will start a relationship with that they will most likely opt for the most wealthy guy. How Dutch women need to be tamed, something a Dutch female radio presenter came up with. But that the government treats Dutch males like morons because they feel that guys don’t deserve these girls, because Dutch girls should be innocent and religious. How me being an angel got me quite a bit of attention, but being a servant I couldn’t look after my own interests, because I was made to serve the common good. And then I got this rider and was kept away from girls I would have liked. So my love life was totally impossible because of the government and my inability to go after my own interests. How in 1988 I said on local radio that I wasn’t interested in Dutch females because I wanted to be with an American woman, which was my honest opinion but kind of stupid to say on air. I am only getting older and my chronic health conditions make me in need of care so that Dutch couples can feel what it is like to care for someone. To me this is a government sponsored crime. How strong women have children and that I only reveal the ‘weak-spots’ of Dutch women so I won’t be granted any children. I sure would like to live in some other country than The Netherlands.

Aljo_

PS, How males who are already married tell me I need to respect women. Even though I am supposed to be in love, and when you are in love with someone that you respect that person, and don’t care about others. In other words these males tell me to care for my second choices.

Last week I was watching German television and there was on the news an item on about how in Germany unemployed people need to accept a low paying job if they are offered one. But that there simply aren’t enough jobs available for all unemployed. There was an example of this man on – what they call in Germany – ‘Hartz 4′ which is a name for social security benefits for long term unemployed workers. And this man was unable to hold a job and refused to sweep the streets for a living for one Euro per hour. So what he had done was he had found a Medical Doctor who had written an official document for him so that instead of unemployed he now was unfit for work and therefore he no longer needed to accept any jobs he didn’t like anymore. This man had been ‘krank-geschrieben’ which is literally in English: ‘written-sick’. That when I saw my first shrink in 1987 that these people must have known I wasn’t ill but that the Dutch government wanted to use me to punish youths. Because the youths no longer attended church, because the youths no longer had lasting relationships, because the youths didn’t have any children and so on. This is why my health was sacrificed. How there must have been someone who could who stole my soul so that he (or she) could make me delusional. How my learning process has been destroyed, and that lately I am having trouble understanding radio programs what is being said there because my brain is unable to function properly. That Dutch community leaders didn’t want me to have any children unless I behaved precisely the way they wanted, like going to church and so on. I did go to church, but I can’t sing so it is no fun. It is like that song by Paul McCartney “The county judge held a grudge…” That the Dutch authorities hate American culture so they considered me an enemy and destroyed me mentally and physically. I feel I have a right to immigrate to Australia to live a life in freedom without being the victim of a government sponsored crime. How the Dutch Balkenende IV cabinet fell last night and that I feel Prime Minister Balkenende is doing a good job, but that I thought the PvdA was perfectly right to end the coalition. I feel that with any Christian Democrat government that my love life won’t stand a chance, even though there must be people – who aren’t political leaders – who are ruining my life no matter who is in power here, so I am no longer interested in Dutch news. If I had been free I wouldn’t have been living in the Netherlands anymore anyway.

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I find it so mean that on Dutch television they are going on and on about me and my family, that we are public property while at the same time my freedom is being denied to me. Fame means that you are entitled to power and or wealth. That I realized that people were talking about me in the early 1980s and that I didn’t approve of it. So I tried to avoid it when I was in university, but that the Dutch didn’t accept ‘no’ for an answer. So when I was in my 5th semester that I skipped a day and that when I was in our building the next day that my fellow students told me: “They were looking for you the other day! With photo cameras and everything.” I think the Netherlands government was responsible for denying me my anonymity. When a few weeks later I phoned with my American love interest that the Dutch had decided that I should drop out of university. My American military friends realized what was happening and decided to hire me. But the Americans left the local base and the Dutch were determined to ruin my life. The Dutch know what they did which made me delusional. The Dutch know what they did which caused my heart condition. The Dutch know what they did which caused my muscle condition. I feel after all this abuse that I am perfectly in my right to leave The Netherlands should some other country I like want to have me. Even though I am totally unable to live a normal day to day life, due to these physical conditions. I cannot work for a living, but I generate revenue. How I noticed how the global consensus among political leaders decided that I belong in Europe so Australia will never let me in anymore. I wonder who has decided I needed to go bald. This was deliberately done to me. It isn’t fun to be famous and unattractive. But then people get the government they deserve. For instance the previous Australian Prime Minister was bald too and he was one of the most effective government leaders I ever heard about! But the fact that these people in power took my scalp makes me realize that I am not going to do these people any favors. My personal history for the past 30 years sure makes me realize that these people didn’t allow me to have a normal social life. I don’t view Dutch television but I do know that these people go on and on about us, that people think it has a positive effect on Dutch society. That my being single is only needed to make other Dutch people feel love. While I am no longer interested in a love life in The Netherlands. I can’t even live my life in a normal way being single, let alone live it together with a partner! This is because my rider controls my decision making process, I wouldn’t be able to interact with my partner, because I don’t control my own thinking process. My problems are said to have a positive impact on Dutch youths. That my life has effectively been sacrificed so that other people could live the kind of life the Netherlands government wants. I am wondering if the government has a right to do this to me. It is the combination of on the one side the constant media attention and on the other side my total inability to be independent which makes me believe that this cannot be justified by any democratic government. Even though my personal situation has become more international how for instance I wouldn’t know a thing about Dutch politics, while I do know the German political situation. I cannot live the life of a zoo animal, or a circus animal for that matter. I cannot prove my mental condition was deliberately done to me, even though my delusional thoughts were probably generated by someone who wanted me to be delusional. I can proof that my physical conditions were in fact deliberately done to me! These conditions wouldn’t have happened under ‘normal’ circumstances.

Aljo_

Valentine’s Day is nice, but I am being held captive and that my life is totally impossible. That because my freedom is being denied to me, that there is nothing I can do with my life. I am unable to be in a relationship because I do not control my own thinking process. The female I would send a Valentine, I sent a Valentine in 1999, she replied she wasn’t single. That if I couldn’t be with her, that I would like to be with Vanessa who lives in Tasmania and that I figure we must be really compatible. But that being over age 40 that relationship websites no longer consider you like an eligible bachelor but more like a buddy. How my relational situation was deliberately made impossible for me since I was age 15. Maybe because the government needed the experience of a male who wasn’t sexually active, in order to change society. If this were true then it would make perfect sense that I never was with a woman. But should I ever get my freedom back that then I will move to Australia, even though I will always need a pacemaker so I will never be free anymore. I feel like the victim of a crime, a government sponsored crime. That these people need to get punished but who will punish the government?

Aljo_

I associate this song with Valentine’s Day – also known as Singles Awareness Day – for this year.
Sung by country singer Clint Black, titled: ‘Gulf Of Mexico’.

The Texas coastline hold her
Close just like a lady
And in their time they’ve
Weathered a storm or two.
The river feed her waters like
I feed your memory.
The deeper I go the more I’m turning blue.

The sandy beaches drift in time
And the changing tide I know
Won’t bring me back to yesterday
And the Gulf of Mexico.
The sails out on the water will
Come take you away.

When your ship comes in I know its time to go
And the waves along the seawall
Tell me nothings here to stay
And no man is an island but I’m still all alone.

I’m weighing anchors from the past
As the south winds start to blow
Sailing out of yesterday
And the Gulf of Mexico.
I’ll be sailing out of yesterday
And the Gulf of Mexico.

My mental condition is a controlled situation needed to take away my freedom, because the Dutch government doesn’t want me to move to Australia to stay there, so they hold me captive. Just like my heart condition which was done to me to force me to accept my fate. Yesterday I heard on the Dutch radio news that I won’t be set free in 2010. My opinion about this is that I am in love with this Dutch female – since 1994 – but that the Dutch deny me her because she wasn’t a university student, because she is a blond (too pretty), probably because she wasn’t religious and because the government had selected someone else for me to be with. So now she probably is with someone else and that I am simply no longer interested in any other Dutch woman to be in a relationship with. The Dutch knew that I was in love, but that these people wanted to punish me for having a relationship with an American military woman who was stationed on a nearby air base. As you can understand the Dutch aren’t going to set me free so that I could marry me a Tasmanian woman, so they keep postponing the date of my return to freedom. I am no longer interested in Dutch radio and television I simply don’t like what they broadcast. I know this Dutch guy who is about my age, who got a Masters Degree and moved to Rome, Italy where he married a local woman and started a family. I am too old to do this now, but I would be interested in living in Berlin and marrying me a German woman. Not that this will ever happen, but this is only needed to illustrate just what the Dutch government is denying me. That the Dutch will never grant you a Masters Degree if you have views they disagree with. Like my interest for American politics. I think I would have left The Netherlands after getting my degree. That the Dutch wanted to make sure that American politicians would never get to become friends with me. It was the American interest in me which made the Dutch kick me off university. That when you are in a university that you are under the influence of the local government and that the government will never let you complete a degree if they doubt your loyalty. The American ambassador to NATO is Mr Ivo Daalder, who was born in The Netherlands, educated in The Netherlands and in the Uk, became an adviser to President Clinton and got to be a naturalized American in 1993. This is just the type of career the Netherlands government would deny all Dutch students.

Aljo_

Yesterday I saw this feature on television about a new Pierce Brosnan movie titled ‘The Ghost Writer’. It is about how this young writer is interviewing the British Prime Minister (Tony Blair) to find out just why he decided that Britain needed to go to war (Iraq). This is an interesting movie because of course lots of people have questions about this and that this movie will probably explain aspects of this decision people didn’t get to see in the news on television.

Aljo_

How I feel as if women are from another planet, and that this is deliberately being done to me. As it is I am not free to think and do things the way I would want to do so myself. I sometimes wonder if I am starting to suffer from Alzheimer. This isn’t due to bad luck that I got all these health problems, these problems were deliberately done to me, by people who deny me my happiness, freedom and good health. It seems like the Netherlands government is deliberately making sure I am alone so that other Dutch people will be stimulated to be with someone and start a family. When I was in my twenties none of my local friends even had a girlfriend, because I think now, the Dutch government made sure of this. How the girls I knew all were indoctrinated to reject me and my friends, that they didn’t want to go steady, they only wanted to get married. And that these girls knew the Netherlands government made sure that I would never be with a steady girlfriend. So then I fell in love with a local girl who liked me too. When it turned out to be mutual the Dutch changed their tune saying I was not allowed to marry my first girlfriend. How the father of my high school sweetheart didn’t want me to be with his daughter if she was my first girlfriend ever. (This is what I conclude now.) While I was very much in love with this girl, that I couldn’t even think about other females. There must have been people all along who could remotely control me and who didn’t allow me to be with a woman. I wonder if these people are the Dutch government or some other organization. That after I got older these people made sure I would become unattractive and lose my good health to such an extent that a relationship would become totally impossible. Because these people envied me this. That my misery is only needed to make others feel love, as if I am a scapegoat. This is really unfair and very wrong. How the Netherlands television – which I don’t watch – is all over me, with a program titled ‘Dear Paul’, as if I ever got a ‘Dear Aljo’ letter from a Dutch woman! I did get lots of love letters from my American and Philippine female pen-pals. Something the Dutch always denied me.

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How on Dutch television they stigmatize me as being a homosexual who isn’t allowed to get married or even have any children. I am not a homosexual but it wouldn’t surprise me if the Netherlands government will make sure I will never get married. This is pretty serious, how evil can you be denying someone to get married? Of course these people are only envying me my freedom. Like how I would never let my children be baptized. This must be the reason why the Dutch totally made my relational situation impossible over all these years. As it is I no longer care for The Netherlands anymore, but that with my pacemaker I am unable to leave here for good. It wouldn’t surprise me if the Dutch authorities deliberately caused my heart condition in order to be able to take away my freedom.

Aljo_

Today is February 2nd 2010, which means that the Dutch Crown Prince and Princess Maxima have been married for 8 years! Their wedding date is easy to remember it was 2/2/2002. I wish the Royals happiness. The other bit of good news I read today was that Australian billionaire James Packer and his wife got a newborn son today, they already have a daughter. This is really nice that wealthy people get the opportunity to have a family. Me and my family aren’t rich and we are unable to reproduce, but that when you are worth so much money that it is really important to have kids who can then inherit the family fortune.

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