Mental Pressure.
Lately I get confronted with pressure, how it feels as if my head is about to explode. I reckon there are people who are frustrated by me switching off the Dutch television news after 5 minutes today because I preferred to listen to Tasmanian radio, which is a pleasant experience. A shrink is never going to believe you when you try to explain that people are subjecting you to psychological pressure. Not because he thinks it is impossible but because he doesn’t want to have to consider the answer to the question: “Who is doing this to me?” Because Medical Doctors start to lie and change the subject when the conversation is dealing with a medical condition being the result of a hostile act which has deliberately been done to you. Sort of like my first delusional thoughts which I think now were all deliberately planted on my brain. All this had to do with me being interested in the American airmen on a local air base and that the Americans faced opposition from certain local nationals who were using their ability and power to make me mentally ill. Now over 20 years later it is becoming clear of what the Dutch authorities have done to me, that they realize they are never going to get me back! I mean, I have a house and a wife in Tasmania, so it is not like as if I’ve got nowhere to go. But that the Dutch gave me a pacemaker to make sure I could never fly away anymore. How me and my Australian wife have known each other for over 10 years, when she was 29 and I was 32, and that she wrote me she wanted to get married and have children, which didn’t happen so now she is devoted to me and I love her too. How I feel there are people here who make me need sex in order to defeat me, it is the only thing left the Dutch can hit me with, while these people are surrounded and really no longer have the upper hand. I would be happy in Tasmania, I asked for a house there while I was there in 1997, at the time they told me they couldn’t help me. Since then Australia has become much more wealthy and has risen on the global ladder of prestige. That the Australian economy is larger than the Dutch economy while these economies used to be on par. The Australian government is planning on millions more of Australian citizens within two decades. I think about Australia every day and that the Australian government noticed, that loyalty is rewarded.
Aljo_
PS, There is a Dutch woman I would like to be with, but that the Dutch have hurt me and my relatives over me being in love with her several times, since 1994. Basically they considered her to be too pretty for me. And that the Dutch were obsessed with me and my desire to be with a pretty wife. So I never got to be in a position of being mutually in love with a Dutch female, while I was mutually in love with an American military woman.