Aliens.
How I feel as if women are from another planet, and that this is deliberately being done to me. As it is I am not free to think and do things the way I would want to do so myself. I sometimes wonder if I am starting to suffer from Alzheimer. This isn’t due to bad luck that I got all these health problems, these problems were deliberately done to me, by people who deny me my happiness, freedom and good health. It seems like the Netherlands government is deliberately making sure I am alone so that other Dutch people will be stimulated to be with someone and start a family. When I was in my twenties none of my local friends even had a girlfriend, because I think now, the Dutch government made sure of this. How the girls I knew all were indoctrinated to reject me and my friends, that they didn’t want to go steady, they only wanted to get married. And that these girls knew the Netherlands government made sure that I would never be with a steady girlfriend. So then I fell in love with a local girl who liked me too. When it turned out to be mutual the Dutch changed their tune saying I was not allowed to marry my first girlfriend. How the father of my high school sweetheart didn’t want me to be with his daughter if she was my first girlfriend ever. (This is what I conclude now.) While I was very much in love with this girl, that I couldn’t even think about other females. There must have been people all along who could remotely control me and who didn’t allow me to be with a woman. I wonder if these people are the Dutch government or some other organization. That after I got older these people made sure I would become unattractive and lose my good health to such an extent that a relationship would become totally impossible. Because these people envied me this. That my misery is only needed to make others feel love, as if I am a scapegoat. This is really unfair and very wrong. How the Netherlands television – which I don’t watch – is all over me, with a program titled ‘Dear Paul’, as if I ever got a ‘Dear Aljo’ letter from a Dutch woman! I did get lots of love letters from my American and Philippine female pen-pals. Something the Dutch always denied me.
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